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Gabrielle -> RE: Apology to all (3/29/2004 7:48:15 AM)
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First of all, let me say, I am brand new and do not know which post you are referencing. but I will answer your question:
Freedom is the absolute perfect word for the lifestyle of a submissive. My priority is to serve him. In any way I can. I see everything I do as something I do for him. I raise our children, for him. I go grocery shopping with him in mind. I keep the car filled with gas..for him. I have a change of clothes for him after work and a tall glass of tea or beer...for him. I cook ... for him. Nothing is for me. I am on the bottom of the pole at home. It is Him, the kids, the dog, me. And yes, this is absolute freedom. I am not preoccupied with fairness to myself. I am not feeling cheated out of anything. I am not worried about ME time or what I want. If there is something I want, I merely mention it and 9 times out of 10, I get what I want. But not because I begged and pleaded, nagged or bitched. Because he wished to please me as a reward for my efforts in serving him. I do not seek out these 'rewards'. My reward is his happiness with me. My reward is his smile.
I used to be very selfish...and very unhappy. Some may say, I still am selfish, but it only appears to be so because I do get what I want. Those who think I am selfish, are not aware of my situation. I get everything I need, that is his responsiblity and most everything I want, that is his choice. He worships me, as I worship him, we just know our places.
So yes, I gain freedom from serving him. I have no worries, I give it all to him. And he is strong enough to handle it all. He has me to serve him to please him, to leave him alone when he needs it. IF a good man has that, what CAN'T he handle?
A perfectly balanced D/s relationship comes from both partners giving 100%, not 50-50. He knows I need to be taken care of. And I know he is the type who needs to take care of someone. But he also needs that respect and unconditional servitude. I give that to him, which leaves me free to have something I have never known before him. Happiness.
As far as giving up control. I don't see it that way. I always have control. I know where the door is. I can leave at any time. I still know how to think for myself and how to speak. I don't see that he controls me. I see that I have given myself and my life to him. He accepts that gift and cherishes it.
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