PainCompliant
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For a long time captivity (NOT prisoner/guard roleplay) was , and maybe still is, my primary interest in the BDSM world. I have spent many a three or four day weekend confined. The longest I have been held, so far, is eight days. It was one of the toughest experiences of my life, mostly because of the tedium, but it was also one of the more meaningful. E-mail me I will be glad to share my diary of that experience - it was originally published in Dungeonmaster, about fifteen years ago.
It has been my experience that many people, especially masters or captors or whatever do not understand or seek such an activity. That is cool until they start to put down or discredit what they do not understand.
Here is the what and why of what I seek and what I get from captivity.
1. Reality. I suck at role play. I don't believe the level of control I seek and need can come when I have choices, when it depends on my continuing cooperation and acceptance. Being anchored by a shackle or collar on a chain removes all options. Being locked in a cell or room removes all options. I have given someone total control over me and, unless I can talk him out of it, there is nothing I can do about it.
2. Intensity. I quickly become totally dependent on my captor - not only for sustinance but for attention and human contact. With every day that dependence grows. He determines my sense of time, my comfort level, my diet, my cleanliness, my degree and quality of sleep. Everything. If the person is skilled and has the inner strength it takes, this process will break me to instant obedience. There is one case where, after a period of four days confinement, I met that person in a social situation a few months later. The intimidation and sense of his control immediately returned. He owned me.
3. The boredom changes me. I am the sort of person that needs constant input - noise, conversation, visual stimuli. I have to learn to deal with the tedium. After a few hours I am having a hard time handling it. After a couple of days I want to stop, need to stop. When my captor hangs tough, the captivity becomes real and I have to adapt or go crazy.
4. The sound of approaching footsteps. They offer a break to the loneliness and tedium. I don't know whether they bring sustinance or pain. But either way I welcome them because they bring human contact. If it is pain, I will not enjoy it. I will suffer. I will want it to stop. I will be greatful when it ends. But the next time I hear those footsteps, I again don't care why they approach.
5. No options. So far I have been lucky. I have not been confined in a house that burns down on a regular or even a non-regular basis. If a guy's house burns down every few weeks I want to know and will probably pass on letting him confine me. At the same time, I don't want a safe out - a key I can reach, a phone I can use. It immediately gives control back to me. If that happens, what is the point? Nor do I want a captor I can convince to free me just because I want out. This is also a battle of wills - one that I will probably seriously try to win because I am bored and lonely, but don't want to win. When I start this sort of thing, I cede my captor total control. From then on, I try to regain as much control as I can. I validate his control when I can not win back some of his control over me.
6. The challenge. One time I was chained in a basement. The keys to the locks were well out of my reach, hanging on a far wall. However my captor had been careless. There were some spreader polls and scraps of previously used duct tape scraps. I managed to tape together a pole long enough to retrieve the keys. I escaped, got in my car and headed home. I've escaped a few times. That is part of the reality. As much as I seek confinement, I did not like it while it was happening. If I can get free, I do. I am disappointed when I can escape. But the only way I can prove to myself that the control is real, is to test it, to challenge it, and lose.
7. The Captor. Not everyone is suited for this sort of thing. Probably most are not. If he thinks of himself as serving me, as waiting on me hand and foot, it is not going to work. If he is not willing to accept the minimal risk of leaving me confined when he goes to work or leaves for other reasons, it is not going to work. If he worries that I will later turn him in to law enforcement for keeping me a prisoner against my will, it is not going to work. If he believes that the 3' x 4' dog cages are practical for a multi-day period of confinement, it is not going to work. The captor has to be driven to have real and total control and power over another human being. If not, this is not for him.
8. Time Span. I would like to arrive at a 24/7 TPE, but am not sure my life will permit that. It will take a lot of creativity to make it happen for real. Until then, this approach permits periods of intense and real total control that can be worked into the rest of my repsonsibilities. I will emerge broken by another man. Depending on that man, his power over me will be deeply etched into my psyche. In a way, his power and control will always be with me - buried, but if our paths again cross, immediately brought to the surface.
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RE: Prisoner Slave submissives - 
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