tsatske -> RE: Communicating with the slave or lack there of (9/7/2008 5:01:16 AM)
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If your a grown adult, and cant remember to take your medications, or eat, or sleep, or do anything on your own theres a serious problem to me. It screams not only extreme co-dependency issues but a lot of other psychosis's and you should be hospitalized until you can do basic things in life on your own. oh, for FUCK SAKE, are you serriously saying that your definition of when someone needs INPATIENT hospitalazation is when they forget their medication or do not have good sleep patterns? I'm not paranoid, i just thought i was. There really are a bunch of idiots who want every bi-polar person on the planet locked up and never let out, aren't there? Good GOD all mighty. I am Bi-polar. Master knew that before our first meeting. We talked exstensively about EXACTLY what that meant, for me, in my life. I am non-medication managed. That means, by the way, that, with a great deal of work and attention, I manage to be pretty stable. I am fairly out about being mentally ill - but in places where I chose NOT to be out, no one would suspect that I am mentally ill. I go to work everyday, love my job, and impress the hell out of bosses and parents (clients) because I am great at what I do. I don't melt down all over someone elses kids. A NORMAL symptom of bi-polar disorder is resistance to medication. Even though I am non-medication managed, I have other medical problems - I am diabettic, for instance. I must take drugs everyday. Withoug Master in my life, I ask a family member or friend to help me be accountable to take my medication. Once a week, I show someone my pill box, knowing that non-empty boxes will be revealed to another person who cares about me, and then i fill it. It works for me. I have no problem with the fact that you would not need such assistance, but are you honestly saying that that is far too much of an accomadation to my medical condition for the outside world to make, and I should be institutonalized so that no one will have to be so horribly put out? Since drugs become 'evil and bad' to me (in my mind) on a regular basis, another thing I do is say that outloud. Master knows when He needs to keep a closer eye on me and my meds because I am honest with what my head is doing. So, Yes, if I was under undo relationship stress I would be more likely to reject my meds, that is true. That is not the same as saying I would kill myself or jump off a bridge. I have a history of self-injury, or counter-pain. It NEVER happens now becuase my contract states that I must ask permission to practice counter pain. In addition to the fact that He is NOT going to give me permission - the fact is, i am not a drama-whore, and even if I really, REALLY would like to cut myself, asking for him feels drama-whore and manipulative to me, so I am HIGHLY unlikely to ask, forcing me to reject that option. However, if i simply agreed to never do it, when i needed it, i would convince myself that NOW didn't count in that agreement, because we had not taken into consideration how much pain i would be in, right now.... by saying, instead, that I must ask, that pretty much completely controls the behavior. Sleeping is a big issue for most bi-polars. When i live alone, i deal with the insomnia by getting up, playing on my computer, not sleeping, and setting off a manic stage. I have a bi-polar sisterslave, who is not a fulltime sister, not collared to Master, and does not live with us, and this is a real and ongoing problem for her. It is no longer a problem for me, becuase, even if Master does not chain me to the bed, I know that I am not to go out the bedroom door between the time i retire and the time he send me for coffee. pretty simple. I deal better with simple cut and dried expectations in some areas like this. Do I need a master in my life to function? no. Do I need some assistance, from someone, somewhere, to function? In fact, yes, i do. I am able to get it from family, friends, community support, self help groups, ect, ect. I continue to get much of it from those people even with Master in my life, which is as it should be. Master knew these things when he got me, and decided that he could deal with them. I know many people think that mentally ill people should not be in this lifestyle, but they don't have to play with me. The general societal attitude, however, that anything less than perfect mental health should not be allowed to walk around on the streets, is riddiculous. The truth is, if my diagnoises were known, in spite of doing a great job with the kids, I would probably be fired out of reactionary fear. what child care providor would want parents to know that she hired a mentally ill person to care for their children?
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