candystripper
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I'm bored with the US presidential race. It'll all be over, one way or another, in November, unless they litigate. What holds my interest now? 1. Kindness. I think a person could spent an entire life studying and learning about kindness; buidling whole philosophies about it; engaging in it in ever-more depth. I think it's a superior way to learn about who you are, and what the world really is. It is an active and engagig matter...kindness is never accidential or passive. 2. Traveling. There's a difference between turning 30 or 40 and turning 50. I can see my parents' generation dying. I can see my own death. It is a magical time, full of wonder, if only I choose to explore. 3. Pain. I am not maso, but apparently Gawd is sadistic. Pain has begun to fill my body. Will it last? Will I lose my mind? What would that be like? Meanwhile, I've noticed it is impossible to 'let your thoughts wander' while pain fills you. Pain drives out self-pity. Pain sharpens the wits. Pain is not just an enemy. 4. Poverty. I fought my way up from it, dreaded it all my adult life, and what with the cost of medical care, am fast descedning into it. What did I really fear? The deprivation? Or the loss of self? Am I as easy to disregard now as I was once? What do I need that I don't have? Nothing. Then how am I poor? 5. Men. As lovers, as Doms, as beings. They clearly have different brains and they fascinate me endlessly. I could spend 15 monutes having coffee with a man, and feel something new; women don't seem to bring that to the table for me. Anyone else have any thoughts? candystripper
< Message edited by candystripper -- 9/7/2008 10:28:53 AM >
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