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hapistan -> A question about switching and pro-dommes.... (10/1/2008 8:12:13 PM)
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and switching i suppose....
I happened to go for a "swift half" with an ex a few days ago, whilst she wasnt the first person I'd know to be a bit on the kinky side and to enjoy things we'd associated with BDSM, she did after some coaxing of me by her, have me perfecly comfortable with and enflamed by the fact that she got kicks from me being what previously I'd have thought (there is an exception her in another person but Its not quire relevant, I was only a teen and she was uni staff, so she was clearly in control, whatever went on) was tantamount to abuse.
I've only since then met one person who's shared such taste.
and then another. However! without trying to much, I've found myself totally switched to submissive, slave even. (I'll elaborate if anyone asks but my intent is not to write porn...)
anyway, to get to the point, I was discussing this with the person mentioned first.... I was wondering if it was just this recent girl (who's been and gone sadly, perhaps i shouldnt even be wondering!) who's awakened and very much cajoled and coerced (not in a malevolent way I hasten to add), but maybe purely here not since It did occur to me about a week ago whilst watching berlin/audrey hollander and such things this yuear, that whereas I'd be fantasising about being Berlin, now it was being Berlins object, It was suggested to me (actually by someone in chat here too...) that I go see a sadistic pro-domme and have her do me as she saw fit, but it immediately (despite the fact theres a stunning one often online on the personals from liverpool too) turned me off, my point being that how can it be compared to say lettting recent girl do anything she liked simply because I wanted to see a luck of smug satisfaction on her face knowing she can do as she desires, Its just happned simply because I've paid someone to do things to me that may or may not arouse me.
And to ask the question I've been skirting around, does anyone, particalarly anyone at the same point as me right now agree? because maybe its just me but.... I keep getting told I just don't get it!
oh If you've read all that. xxxx to you
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