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jadedsubgirl -> Gifts (12/4/2005 2:34:17 PM)
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I am owned by a Mistress whom I give up all of my earnings and finances to- unusal for a female slave, I know. I am not here to debate the morality or sanity or anything else regarding that. My Mistress belives in total control of Her slaves, money being no different than any other aspect of servitude, submission and obedience. And, She believes wholeheartedly (like no one else I've ever met before) that a Mistress owns and has full rights to everything of Her slave's. Again, I am not here to debate this.. this is how my Mistress lives and that is just the situation as it is... which I accept and live by as well in order to be Her slave.
So, I do not spend any money without Her permission and She decides what I can and can not buy or have. My bills are taken care of and for example, this month there is going to be quite a bit of allowances... christmas gifts for family, my hair straightened (I am lucky and quite grateful She is letting me do this.. it is VERY expensive), a very, very expensive family dinner I pay for in a very expensive restaurant which is tradition this time of year for us... etc. I have to keep track of everything I make and everything I spend and it has to add up or be very close. I turn my money over to Her and She gives me back what She decides including agreed upon expenditures and enough pocket money for gas and food and so forth.
So, my question is what am I supposed to do regarding gifts for Her? Before I became owned and served Her more casually, I often bought Her gifts - little ones and large ones and random ones and those for the occasions: birthday and Christmas. But, now that I turn everything over to Her, I originally thought that meant I no longer buy Her presents... She'd much prefer that aspect of control over me. But, I asked one of Her other slaves- male who has far less than I do in terms of possessions- and he said he asked Her once and She said something about maybe setting up a separate account for that, but it was never done. So, he doesn't have any answers either. I don't know what I am supposed to do.. I don't have a way of squandering away any significant amount of money by Christmas without Her knowing... She knows generally how much money I tend to make and it is pretty consistent and I don't feel comfortable lying to Her in any way even for the purpose of buying Her a gift (I once bought Her flowers since being owned because She was terribly upset about something; I asked permission to go out to eat and then spent the money instead on flowers and told Her that I had used the money She gave me permission to spend on eating out.. because I don't want to lie for any reason to Her). And, if I don't buy something but I am supposed to, then it would appear horrible.. that I did not get anything for my Mistress!!! I am at a loss ....
I feel asking Her would be sooo awkward and in a way tacky.... And, I am running out of time.. only 3 weeks left.
Any ideas what the right thing to do is?
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