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sistermargaret -> Surrender (10/5/2008 11:15:23 AM)
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"All it takes is absolute surrender". i got a Cmail from a fellow submissive asking me what this phrase means, to me. It probably means to me the same thing that it means to you if you are owned, so you understand the depth to which this ownership goes in your heart and soul.
The first time Master and i were alone together, i was just having fun with it, not really taking any of Him seriously ... a boody call, so to speak. Patiently, firmly, He wound His fingers in my hair and put me to my knees before Him. It was the first time i'd ever been on my knees to someone and i was shocked at the flood of emotions. Being a wise and experienced Master, He knew this. He asked me if i wanted to kneel to Him. i said yes. He asked again, if i really wanted to kneel to Him. i said yes ... i think so, becoming more sobor, more aware of the power and glory of Him. He asked me a third time, "Do you want to kneel to me, to my mastery, to my control?" 'Yes' i whispered, taking that leap of faith.
"Do you want all that I can give you?"
"Yes" i said tearfully.
"Do you want Me to own you, mind, body and soul?"
"Yes" i whispered, barely able to think much less speak.
"All it takes for that to happen is your absolute surrender. It requires your absolute surrender. I need your absolute surrender."
After that i thought that the phrase meant one thing, then i thought it meant something else, now i think it means another thing. The phrase keeps taking on new meanings in my heart as Master and i walk this path. i think it is one of those phrases that can have many meanings to anyone who is struggling. W/we discuss it sometimes, but it is mine to keep, a part of Him, a part of U/us.
Sometimes i surrender to His will. Sometimes i surrender to submissiveness. Sometimes i surrender to God. Sometimes i surrender to Life. There are always places and times that require absolute surrender of the heart, or mind, or soul.
Tomorrow i will make arrangements to fly to Florida to be with my Dad because my step-mom will pass away tonight. Because our relationship has been more than astranged since Dad met her, i will need to surrender my pride and haughtiness, and give him the comfort and love he needs.
So, now i'm curious about what it means to others. What does absolute surrender mean to Y/you? Is it indeed necessary? Is it craved?
sm
All it takes is absolute surrender
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