softness
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Joined: 8/1/2006 From: Leeds, UK Status: offline
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Play with people I am intimate with (I do often play casually with friends) often takes me to an intense emotional place. What that emotion is, depends very much on my mood and the type of play. I find it deeply cathartic, I tend to push my emotions aside, or brick them up behind walls. Intense play, with someone who really knows which buttons to push knocks all those walls down, and the emotions flow through me. Because of the intense emotion, I need to have some time to put myself back together afterwards - right after the play finishes. This is not aftercare from my Top, in fact having someone fussing makes it worse because in that moment I usually feel worthless and unworthy. I have some pretty nasty beasts to re-cage in those initial minutes and not having the chance to do that sets me up for massive blistering drop over the next few days. One Top I know just leaves me on the floor and puts a blanket just out of my reach and packs away toys (also needing that space and time to re-cage her demons)- when I am ready to I reach for the blanket and wrap us both in it. In all I find it really positive ... when its handled with consideration and respect.
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proudly wearing the blue collar of consideration to DK Leather, Leatherdykeuk, and LeatherEagle of the UK KRueL Leather Family veritas, respectus honorque in corio
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