jamesthehumanrug -> RE: Fears (12/10/2005 2:15:36 AM)
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greetings m who i just thot of one of my worst fears that really buggs me and that's meeting one to one a very famous; well known ;respected world renouned person and, not knowing ,at all ,that they are that famous person with me........worst nitemare other things next to that i thot would never happen in a million years but ,did happen was knowing and ,seeing a crib hit...probably my darkest day of all........next to facing the end of the world...cause ,that's what it genuinely felt like,and, i hope i never have ,to face being a 'crib hit' witness, again .i still can't get over it and it leaves you with dread.something you never felt before, in your life pure dread and stark reality,and,there's nothing you can say that will change it or take it back ,theres not even a comment you can make that makes any difference at all to you ,at that stark moment. as a kid i imagined my worst fears would be the day i sepparated from mom or id have to end up in a bomb shelter wondering if a can of beans was radiated or safe to eat...thats the fifties for you ...t.v.ads on radiation fall out all the time growing up... those are the 3 worst things the other thing thats a worst fear was in the back of my mind is if the love of my life would stand up for me and, be so stupid as to, put herself in harms 'way and, pay with her life! i try to not think ,about it, or i get extremely angry ,at the mere thot she'd consider, that risk and walk ,into it ,for me i'd be,so g.d. b.s.and, that kinda' worst fear, just stays, in the back of my mind ,so i never have to admit that ,as ever possible ,or as ever really being real or coming true
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