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Padriag -> RE: What foot are you putting forward? (10/30/2008 7:23:34 PM)
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ORIGINAL: persephonee
He started getting up at 4 am and leaving the house without explaination. He would return in the late afternoon and he was freshly showered. My mother was beside herself. They would argue. Finally, a time later...he brought her one of his pay stubs...he had been working at the local meat packing plant, shoving full grown hogs down a conveyer belt and was showering at a fellow teachers house before coming home so that he wouldnt come in covered in sweat and blood. He had a Masters Degree and was pushing hogs shoulder to shoulder with some of the same students that he had taught in high school a few years prior...some of whom he was partially responsible for flunking out of school. He was facing demons in himself and still supporting his family and all the while doing a job that required so much more physical stamina than he was really comfortable with at the time. He did this because he was my father and her husband and he had responsibilities to uphold.
I relate to this on several levels. On one, because its an example I have seen in my grandfather, and a great uncle, who did what they had to to make things work. Neither ever got rich or had a lot in life... but they put food on the table and kept the bills paid. They both taught me the lesson that a man does what he has too.
On another more personal level I relate to it in my own life. As an entrepreneur trying to keep businesses going during the current economic ups and downs... its tough and I'm having to do what I have to to keep things going. That has meant working 14 and 16 hour days, making less money than some of my employees, and setting aside dating or having a D/s relationship until things are more stable. Its not how I want things to be, its just how they are and all I can do is suck it up and deal with it... because like those before me... you do what you have too.
The only thing I sometimes wonder about is this... if I can survive the next 6 months I'll be okay... and in about 5-6 years I should be debt free (not even a mortgage) with a tidy monthly income that will allow my a very comfortable lifestyle... an I'll have earned it. But assuming that at that point I actually do have that "dream" relationship... will she, or they, appreciate what it took for me to get there?
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