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RiotGirl -> Mastered, Mastering, to be or not to be (12/17/2005 2:29:17 PM)
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Heh. That is the question!
So i have an interesting question, that arises from a conversation i had last night. About dreams and what not. Little background. (you know you want to read a 5 page essay!)
i usually get death, destruction, morbid, ppl trying to kill me and others dying dreams. Usually in graphic detail. Limbs ripped off the body? No problem! Blood pouring from various bullet wounds? No problem! Bodies falling 40 floors to the ground? No problem! (boy i tell ya i never knew how bent bones could get till that dream) i usually sum up the dreams as "armagedon" dreams. As pretty much the whole world is being attacked by something and ppl are dying left and right. Though thats not always the scene. Sometimes its death on a smaller level. i mean i dream of falling from an airplane and landing 200 years in the future and there's dinosaurs in the park at night eating ppl. Ok? They're morbyd.
And they arent scary. Now i have noticed that i dont really have them anymore. i cant not remember the last time i had one. And they used to come very frequently. Um almost like all the time. i'm not dreaming them anymore, because oddly enough, i am dreaming of something else. Master. Every night, he is in my dreams. They're good dreams too. No morbyd, not death. Not mass murder. i dream of him and they're like NORMAL dreams. Well normal for me. One i can remember at the moment is of him and i driving to Amsterdam. Actually its a strange dream as he wasnt in the first half and the first half was heading towards morbyd.
Some girl got raped in the dream (might of been me) and was left out in the russian cold, and snow. i remember a man and a a robot and some other wierd things and the girl was naked out there. (things werent looking good for her) Its been awhile since i had that dream, bear with me. but i do remember the switch over. Which is all i remember really. From the cold naked girl in the snow and the man standing up on the hill at the house looking down at her the dream switches to me riding in a car with Master heading towards Amsterdam.
So he does STOP the morbyd dreams. Are ya with me? (i could give more examples, but for the fact no one wants to read a 5 page essay)
Come to find out what a logical reason for this is.
"Part of your mind feels it has no control so what it sees is often wrecked
THE image oof broken bones and mangled bodies represents an inability to make things right
Most likely because before control was lacking and now you are able to put that control in him.
So long as there is control, the bodies need not be mangled"
(thank you a certain some one for letting me quote you)
Another certian some one explained what the quoted ment. Cos well, i'm abit in left field for all this.
Basically i cam connected to him on a subconscious level and he allays my fears on a subconsious level.
Which brings us to the next step. Being Mastered. Now i KNOW, (cant deny it if i tried) that he has tamed me. i could give multiple instances of before and afters. You'll just have to go with me on this. (unless you are really interested in that 5 page essay)
Is being "tamed" the same as being "Mastered"? WHAT is MASTERED? Whats that mean? Whats the ins and outs of it? Anyone have some sort of a definetion so i can use it to look at things and wonder idly in my own little head if its true? i am soooooo dang curious. Because personally, i have ALWAYS considered myself way too wild and crazy to be Mastered. So technically in my little brain, Riotgirl + Him = Mastered? Impossible! So i tried to break it down. Riot divided by Girl pluls H divided by im = Mastered? Definetly doesnt sound right. So its impossible!
but for curiousities sake. WHAT does "Mastered" mean? What does it mean to be Mastered? What are the signs and symptoms of it? (and i'd look it up on WebMD, but i doubt they have it there)
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