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BendingGender -> Ready, Set, Go... Where?! (12/8/2008 6:01:56 PM)
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I am a young-ish FtM who has not yet begun to transition. I grow despondent thinking that I may stagnate and never see the changes I so dearly need to feel free and content... to feel comfortable in my own flesh. My mother, ever supportive, has encouraged me to be proactive regarding my evolution. She's also said that it would make sense for me to transition as much as I can before the family moves. And I quite agree. A new start... with a new form... a new outlook. But that's where the engines start to stall...
I'm currently covered through my mom's work. The plan won't so much as touch Trans issues. I'm also partially covered through my work, and I have to sit down with all of the paperwork that I was sent by the company I'm working for. I do not yet know whether or not any of the changes I'm interested in pursuing will be covered.
I'm looking into local support groups. (Can't be a hermit and expect life to change.) I've begun talking to doctors. (But I don't know if I'm asking the right questions. Or if there are enough of them being asked!) I've had a therapist for over a year and a half.
I'm not sure that I have any specific questions for this forum. My therapist went on hiatus for several months to explore Africa. When she returned she was away on family leave for another month or three. I finally have an appointment with her later this week. So I may just be venting.
I may also be looking into finding a new therapist. My current nut-cracker has previously stated that she's not entirely up to speed regarding Trans issues. She doesn't know if she's the best person for me to be talking to. I guess I'm just lacking guidance. I dislike being so out of control... feeling this lost.
I appreciate comments, thoughts, suggestions, and/or epic poetry... er... scratch that last one. Maybe... suggested reading materials instead.
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