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Lockit..
thanks for the well thought out reply.. i found it very interesting to read, and have to agree.
On a personal level.. you are right.. it IS hard.. to watch family members die of terminal illnesses, but especially genetic disease. i spent lots of time avoiding visiting for that exact reason, it was hard not to look at my mother, and not see a potential future for myself. Regardless of how often i visited, in those ten years.. i was always confronted with the overwhelming fear that i was looking into a crystal ball and seeing my own future. The average person does not understand how that feels.
Just like you said, i have also done the same thing, in making this decision for myself, gone through all of the long thought out processes of making such a decision... "Medical things of course, but family, life, the after life, laws, how to do it "
Some of those things.. like religion for example.. have nearly scared me enough to change my mind.. the whole "suicide is one of the deadly sins" argument.. has really terrified me. And i have also questioned the belief of "God healing" in that, i ask those whom believe that God heals.. well then, what if i asked God to heal me.. and say for the hell of it, He says, "sure sherry.. you are NOW healed.. " does the fact that the disease is hereditary mean.. once i am "healed".. that none of my children will ever get the disease that they would have inherited from me.. or..are they still needing to be healed seperately..?.. Nobody has ever answered.. and why? Because most people tend to think of "God healing" in the terms of what you see on tv or read of such "miracles" Blind people, no longer blind.. The lame..no longer lame.. ect... but you NEVER hear of God performing any miracle healings on people with hereditary disease. How equal opportunity is THAT? or..how fair?
And so.. if God won't or can't heal herditary disease.. if there really is a God.. then i'm thinking He shouldn't much mind if i decide on my own when i have had enough.
Anyways i degress.. and now back on topic..
i like your guess as to the possible reason why then gentleman in the original op chose to have his suicide videotaped, and eventually televised..
i hadn't read the original article.. till today.. and my heart broke from what i read, cause it sounds so much like the struggle i might someday face. i can easily relate to how he felt, and very much admire why he made the decisions he did.
i by no means advocate suicide.. for any other reason then medical.. For instance, i have already admitted that it is part of my plans to someday, if needed, to end my life when quality of life is such, that there is more pain and suffering, then compared to joys and happinesses..so, i am pro Suicide.. right? Not completely.. my rather young neice just attempted ,a few weeks ago, suicide, over a disagreement with her boyfriend.. and well.. i am so very terribly angry at her. For what she put my sister through.. for the selfish act.. for the financial burden she would have left to her mother.. all of those things. It has been a bit of a struggle for me to set inside my mind, how what i am planning, is in anyway different then what she attempted to do. How do i have a right to express my very deep anger and dissapointment in her, when i am willing to concider the same act for myself? It seems kinda..well... hypocritical. i do know what the difference is, however.
i do hope that with taping his suicide, and having it made public like that, as you suggest.. bring about change. Change in laws, change in how people view death, and opens dialog. i have written several times on here, largely about Huntingtons disease, but also, in lesser degrees...about the struggle people have in facing death, the struggle of terminal illnesses.and especially Hereditary disease.. assisted suicide.. ect.
Why do i write about these very personal things?
Well.. its not an easy thing to be so open with telling my story.. not at all. But i do so, because first, i want to open other peoples minds a bit.. to perhaps give a glimpse of what its like, from a different perspective.. To allow people a chance to walk in my shoes for a moment.. and hopefully change their minds..
And my personal agenda is the disease itself.. So many people have never heard of Huntingtons disease.. There is lil public awareness of a disease that.. since it can't infect them.. they have nothing to worry about.
Well, i am here to change that.. i am here to tell of the hundreds of thousands of people that suffer from this disease WORLDWIDE... that well.. just because YOU cant contract it from me.. by kissing me.. by fucking me.. by touching me.. there is still a chance it too..can affect your family.. your child might meet and marry someone with the disease.. Your sister..your brother..your child.. anyone has the opportunity to suddenly bring this disease into Your family too!.
And because its not a popularly known or feared disease such as Cancer..ect.. it doesnt have nearly the research dollars and study into finding a cure. i'd like to think i am bringing an awareness of something.. to a bigger audience.. even if they don't care.
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