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dreamerdreaming -> RE: Differences between male and female subs? (5/22/2009 9:54:08 AM)
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ORIGINAL: JuliaGreenleaf
Coherent observations:
Age 3-5: innocent. ran around in pretty dress picking dandelions on grass. insanely smart. lectured babysitter on astrophysics. sometimes mistaken for girl by teachers.
Age 11 - realized was deeply submissive - however, inability to actually do anything about. Grew up as geek and pretty passive. Faked knowing karate or something to avoid getting beaten up. Sang soprano, ect.
Age 21 - realized was female. Took estrogen. transitioned. lived with boyfriend and loved deeply. grew nice little breasts. transition kind of hell - life disruption. Electrolysis expensive. Looked better with makeup than without. Loved, and was loved . Was not actively submissive - was happy to be loved as a woman. Cleaned. Kept house. was generally a nice person, though wish i'd done more in this time looking back. much pain due to body not being right. Electrolysis slowly happened due to very loving boyfriend
Age 28-31 - realized was submissive - did a lot of research. Old relationship gone - surgery took too long, and simply pain from years of things being not right. Now living on my own independantly, with strength from the One who healed me. Obtaining laser hair removal made me realize that yes, i was a pretty girl after all. Looking back, i realized he served as my Dominant in a time when my soul nearly died from being shattered, from being born trans. Got a job, began cleaning up my life - went to school to find something intelligent to do with my life. At times , existed as a feminist, due to training in trans / feminist liberation theory. Strength is something i still find to be a priority when surrender is inappropriate. However, deep down, realized i was deeply submissive - began to question many of baseline assertations of feminism as false, or highly inaccurate.
Age 31-33 actively searching for Dominant/Master. Much chaos, due to trans status. Worked towards getting surgery.
Apparently : estrogen = female sense of the universe and breasts. removal of testosterone = cessation of feeling of being 'poisoned' by horrible, alien chemical.
active knowledge of submissiveness = ability to generate the state 'subspace' and enhanced pain tolerance. chocolate = works with estrogen - good temporary substitute to not being in service/in subspace.
being female <> submissiveness but = gentleness and kindness of spirit. lots of my trans female friends very kind and gentle but not submissive
submissive = ability to bond to Dominant - hear their voice and ovveriding commands as life purpose. Also pain tolerance, desire to serve ect. Separate from being female but combines well with traditional notions. Convinced myself that honorable men = wonderful/amazing, and dishonorable / inept ones = sub nitemare, ignore/avoid/warn other women about/protect other women from.
I still want to hold the baby :)
WOW. Great post! Please post more, around these forums.
Welcome to the boards! Have FUN!
As to the OP's question: I have only ever had the one (male) slave. If I had another, whether male or female, I would continue to tailor my efforts to that individual.
Works for me and mine.
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