colouredin
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I totally agree with you stella. You know I have been reading a book with a deeply cliche title so i wont say what it is however it has taught me a lot about my kind of relationships. Im a fixer, i need to change and help and fix people and this is something that has been the case all the way through my life. I am never happy when I am in a relationship, that may seem like a strange thing to say but its true i feel ore of a complete person when in a relationship but not happy. I dont feel worth while unless im fixing, and this in turn means that I spend no time actually sorting out my own problems, i shove them into something else. I think we put too much stock in relationships, saying you need them to be a whole person is a pile of crap, you can love people without being in a rleationship, you can have company without being in a relationship. If you need to be in a relationship to feel whole then you need to be in therapy. A close friend of mine honestly believes she needs to be with someone, doesnt matter who just someone, she adores them fawns over them changes to become what they want, and why? because she has no self esteem she believes her appearance is all she can offer people but that to be a proper person she has to be in a relationship. We are taught from day one of happy endings and all that malarchy and we believe it, we assimilate it and then we strive for it. Everything else suffers. Now maybe im being cynical because i am just coming out of another relationship that was just the same as the last one and indeed the one before that. But I think not, I think actually its honest. We should not strive for a relationship we should strive for happiness and those two words may not actually be synonyms.
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