NuevaVida -> RE: Uh oh now what (1/8/2009 5:16:16 PM)
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ORIGINAL: OneMoreWaste The more depressed/angry/impaired I am, the more I think about defacing it. At calmer times I think I should leave it alone. Which, IMO, means that leaving it alone is (for me) the better decision, but not the one that will win out in the end. Ain't that always the way... I can relate. At first I just wanted to scrape the damned thing off my body. Now, months later, I am almost indifferent to it. In time I will probably change it to something more suitable to who I am now, but only when it feels right to do so. I don't want to change it for the sake of changing it, and ending up with something else I'm not thrilled with. I will say this - it took me about a year to become comfortable with the idea of being permanently marked. Finally I came to the conclusion that if we ever ended, I wouldn't mind it on me because it would honor the man who helped turn my life around. In retrospect, that was naive thinking on my part. I am the one I should be honoring...I am the one who made the changes I needed to make. My relationship with him is over now and I have moved forward. Marks from the past don't really benefit me now. Maybe I'm somewhat cynical now, but it's not something I would ever want to do again, or agree to do again.
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