theroebabe -> RE: A Masters Respect For His chosen One (9/19/2004 5:14:57 AM)
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ORIGINAL: RhapsodyInBlue Sadly, it doesn't take a chatroom for One to cheat on their own. I ranted here earlier about being deceived, and I do owe my apologies... I have taken every step that I know how to since then in asking indirect questions of Him, hoping for an honest answer. I've not said a word in my journal, but have added some thoughts on the topic of truth along with many other things entries. He said he was proud of me. Why? I am not proud of his behavior. I'm trying to make the relationship work, but he continues to lie. I suppose that I am trying to feel him out, seeing if he will ever be honest with me. The saddest part is this... I don't think he is capable of complete honesty any more. Not to me or himself. Or the other person involved. He's become so wrapped up in an online relationship because of the flattery that being a secret online Master brings to him. The girl is more than half his age, lives in another country. Its doubtful they will ever meet. It's lust, ego, etc. In the mean time, he continues to plan a life with me. I'm trying to cope without losing it altogether. I don't want to lose him, but I don't know how much longer I can go on pretending that I don't know they are still involve after he said that they were not. What honor is there in lying? there is no honor in lying and you have to decide if what you have now is right for you. It hard and will take time, but my personal advise is if it isnt what you want then dont accept it. Good luck in the choice you are about to make. Let us know how you are!
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