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kneesofsteel -> subbie greetings from oregon (1/5/2006 6:19:19 PM)
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greetings A/all, i'm gus aka fun'Gus as i reside in western oregon and moss mold and mildew seems to grow on everything. i'm just getting back to the scene after a hiatus of several years and am hopeful for some weekend playtime with like mided F/folks. i was introduced to the lifestyle by a girlfriend back in the '80s. W/we had dated for a couple of years before She broached the subject that She was dominant in nature and if i would enjoy being tied up. at first i was trepidatious about it as i'd not before given such a thought. Nevertheless i quickly learned that i enjoyed various BDSM practices as a submissive as W/we grew together. W/we continued on for about another year when i learned that She, Lady Axe as She liked to be addressed, had developed a meth/needle habit. thereafter, depite my appetites i departed this unhealthy state of events. i've often reflected upon O/our relationship and miss O/our scenes together. so it was that last year i met online and later in person a Mistress yjsy i would commute to 88 miles away (however i found this undaunting as my desires overran my budget). being away from the scene i was nervous at first but opon O/our first session i was very pleased that She cared not to take me too far. i was most grateful for this as i have heard some frightening stuff in my lifetime. Upon O/ur second session that began swimmingly i spoke with Her of the trappings of that dang vanilla life (that was supporting our toys purchases and dining and such) that i lead. my work occupies 12 hours a day during the week and my weekend work leaves me with only saturday afternoons to sunday late mornings for playtime. at that, i am unavailable for sessions/playtime EVERY weekend so all of this served to damage O/ur relationship to its end. in the aftermath (which i had hoped would be an afterglow) i learned later that She referred to me as topping from the bottom, which really hurt my feelings as i was really living my submissive fantasy and was so grateful for Her to help me explore newer frontiers.
so there Y/you have it, a frustrated subbie that really digs the scene but has only rare opportunities to delve into this scene that i find so fulfilling. am i being idiotic to think that i can meet Someone that can deal with a sincere but part time submissive? be well A/all, take care and play safe, sane and consensual, if that's Y/your bag,
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