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Tavane -> Hello (2/9/2009 6:42:08 PM)
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Hello. I am Tavane, a service submissive from Ohio. I am self-employed and 61 years old, and would love to be the slave of a nice mistress. However, I am transgendered and small, with feminine features and no facial hair, so most females, Dom or not, will not be interested in me, though I've had a few long-term girlfriends in vanilla relationships, since socially I am very masculine and aggressive professionally and socially. I have a doctorate degree, am a Vietnam veteran, and enjoy golf, the wildernes, photography, reading, writing, movies (but not most modern adventure films, which I regard as cartoons with actors instead of animated characters). I love art and music. I'd probably enjoy most things a mistress would enjoy, not because I had intrinsic enjoyment in the activity itself, but because she wanted me to learn/enjoy it, which would generate erotic pleasure as being submissive. Although I'm a TG, I have almost no interest in female activities, but really enjoyed it when a girlfriend taught me to knit, and when we took a breadmaking class, since it was a "girly" activity (though the breadmaking class was so much fun that my enjoyment of it really had nothing to do with TG pleasures, except that with only 2 guys in the class, the teacher would always address the class as "girls", which was nice). I love guy stuff generally, as a matter of interests, if we put aside erotic pleasure. I enjoy cooking though, and it would be nice to have a mistress to cook for. Living alone, I don't bother taking the time to cook really good meals. It's too bad I'm not a total switch, so I could get waves of pleasure cooking for myself, and more of them eating what my slave had cooked.
As a matter of fantasy, I'd want the 1950's household role, as the wife of a mistress, except I'd work outside the home, but I'd frankly want her to control all the money, and I'd have no bank accounts, though I'd prepare the bills and checks for her signature, as her secretary. I'd want to do all the housework, do the washing and ironing, and hopefully most of the cooking and serving, and the cleanup. I'd love doing her nails in the evening, and sit on the floor massaging her feet with warm lotion or whatever she wanted while she watched TV or read, and would love to learn to wash and set her hair, so she could have that done whenever she wanted, and just to obey her totally. Otherwise, I have no kinks. It wouldn't bother me to be restrained if she wished, or caged, but it's not something I'd push for, and I'd not be interested in being injured.
In other words, I just want to be a house slave, as they existed for thousands of years, except when I'm at my job. Pretty boring, all things considered. Undoubtedly a small percentage of historical slaves absolutely loved it, as did a small percentage of women who were essentially chattel and treated like children even into the 1900s.
I'd be willing to relocate, and would love to have a job such as a secretary, since that's a feminine job, and you are subordinate to women. My submission extends to all females, and now and then I'll respond to a clerk or waitress as "ma'am', just for fun, but not often, and it does sometimes surprise them.
As a matter of reality, I've only been a slave to one woman, a female friend who would let me do her laundry, and do her nails while she watched TV and we talked, and I'd massage her feet and legs which were on a pillow on my lap, as I sat on the floor. I absolutely loved it, but she died of cancer. My girlfriends were vanilla, and weren't interested in my TG desires or my submissive desires, which wasn't surprising. I only told them because I don't keep any secrets like that from a woman I truly am falling in love with, so if she really finds it horrible that I even have such desires, we can go our separate ways before we are totally in love. Both such women accepted the desires, but didn't want the behaviors.
I have no idea what the reality of my "fantasy" would be like, but frankly think I would love it, since I so loved the parts of it I explored with my female friend, and the power of male sexuality, even at my age, makes it irresistibly pleasurable, but since this is not an "episodic" thing for me as with visiting a professional, but rather a lifestyle thing, with a mistress who also enjoys me in that role, I'd obviously have to really enjoy the mistress as a person. I like intimate things, such as hair, nails, and massages, and you need to like each other for that.
I particularly like serving a mistress during nearly all of our conversations. I'd rather be ironing in the living room while we talk, or cooking while she comes into the kitchen to talk to me, or doing her nails or massaging her during conversations and watching TV, than to have much "free" time, but I'm sure there is only so much pampering a mistress can deal with, which would give me plenty of "free" time. I would spend a few hours doing this friend's nails and massaging her feet while we watched TV, and it was a hell of a lot better than just watching TV. It's not fatiguing.
In any event, that's me. I posted to these boards just a bit last year, but dont think I ever introduced myself.
Tavane
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