strapddwn -> sexual surrender to him as she surrenderres to me (2/19/2009 4:08:10 PM)
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so most (85%) of my fantasy life in my head is filled with me being a servant and sub/ painslut (though wish could be a better one) to one Master who actually knew what he was doing... like for all time... and do it with exquisite grace, charm, and complete surrender... all of me... then there's this other part......i fantasize and sometimes cum so fucking hard at the thought of finding a woman who is the sub type, who has soft skin and soft kisses, is a perfect pain slut... and likes it... i dream of really intense sex scenes between just myself and her, or if she has done something wrong punishing her... really punishing her... like in bad ways... bound, gagged, tortured, fisted, raped, beaten... then i would love to so gently take her into the shower and wash her so gently and carefully and dress her and prepare her a wonderful dinner and enjoy a bottle of wine with her... and it could start allover again... with coffee in the morning,,, but i would not be fulfilled unless she were released to go and serve her true Master once more and i to serve mine... routinely, regularly... as a matter of course... is there a name for this? am i a nut? [:(][&o] the fantasies i have with her are the same fantasies i would have to be done to myself... is that crazy...
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