Madame4a -> RE: March Roll Call (3/1/2009 4:58:50 AM)
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Oh my gosh.. I have been waiting eagerly for this thread. I have not posted in ages, as I have had nothing nice to say about my life. Things just never seemed worth reporting and I had a rough summer and then fall. Well, life has changed a bit. My relationship with Distraction, as I refered to him, ended sometime around Christmas, although he came over in January as he wanted to talk. Really he wanted to try to talk me back into it, but I declined. He just wasn't consistent enough and had way too many issues. Unfortunately, we love one another a great deal but its not enough. My primary went to hell a couple of times over the summer and then in September/October we took a month off. When we got together after that, it really didn't seem like we were going to stay together. During the apart time I did a few really good things like quit drinking (all my friends say, you didn't have a drinking problem) -- maybe not, but I think I did and so I stopped before it was really bad. I also started some therapy with the world's greatest kink therapist. I saw her at the last leather event I went to *grin*. So, with a lot of soul searching and work, my primary (darling female lesbian boi) and I started a new path -- VERY rough at first through the end of 2008 and now.. its great. I have settled into a space I thought wouldn't work for me. We have our rules and its working really well. And then suddenly, someone I've known for a long time on a casual basis, who had been trying to have lunch with me since December -- I put her off until late January... and when I had not more excuses I met her for lunch. Uhmmm.. I think our worlds collided that day. Its been fun ever since and the beautiful part is, both my primary and this new darling have been great friends for a long time. We fit well together. I keep the relationships separate, but there is some great time that the three of us spend together. Oh, that poly dance is dizzying -- but fun and so worthwhile when you get the steps right. Its very hard to describe how I feel right now, as I've been wondering if I'd ever do poly again, and yet, when it feels like its all right -- I can't help but smile. Everything else is great, we spent last night planning our long summer motorcycle trip and the secondary new one is going to meet us for the last week on the way back. Sorry Lady Pact, we're not taking that souther route this year, but I'll let you know. Hope all are well, I'll come back and read when I have time!
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