DavanKael
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Sometimes I want to let go of all of it. I want to be beaten until I cry. I really resonate with this statement. It's not something that I have experienced but I have wished to for a long, long time. For me, it's about trust and relinquishing control and knowing that He would be there to peel me off the floor and hold me afterward. I glean, from what you've written, a strong grasp of control and that you struggle with letting it go. I think that is the duality of existence sometimes; the various masks we wear and the roles that we play and the urge, the need, to get naked and raw and let our defenses down. Davan
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May you live as long as you wish & love as long as you live -Robert A Heinlein It's about the person & the bond,not the bondage -Me Waiting is 170NZ (Aka:Sex God Du Jour) pts Jesus,I've ALWAYS been a deviant -Leadership527,Jeff
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