Tapestry
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For me it's the eyes. As long as I can't see anything I'm safe. And I was that way as a child too. I can remember, as a small child, being taken through a Haunted House with my older brothers and sisters. My Dad was holding my hand, but I was still scared to death, so I buried my face against his leg so that the monster couldn't get me. I think it's kind of like "If I can't see you, you can't see me." My pets do the same thing when stressed, especially at the Vet! My great big 90# Lab will bury his face against my chest, and as long as he's allowed to, he's calm and lets the Vet examine him. If I have to step away he freaks out. My cat will bury his face in the crook of my arm. When my son was little he would hide his face against my shoulder when he was being shy with other people, or step behind my legs if he was walking. I'm the same way today, and find that during scene time I can take more pain, can go deeper into subspace, and can just enjoy the whole experience better if my eyes are covered. The blindfold works great for this, the one Master chose is very soft and comfortable, yet doesn't allow any seeing around it or under it. I'm totally blind. But we also found something else that works well. In the past couple months I experienced some family trauma that sent me into a depression. I had many panic and anxiety attacks as well. Master began the habit of leaving an undershirt He had just worn here for me to keep close, especially to help me sleep at night. His scent and the soft fabric were very comforting whenever He couldn't be with me. So i would just keep it on the bed by my pillow, and one night, during a scene, He didn't blindfold me, and i just reached up and pulled His shirt, my shirt, over my eyes. And I was instantly calmer and on my way to that happy place.
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Tapestry Daddy's Little Girl "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away." www.tapestry41.blogspot.com
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