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Lockit -> RE: What is your goal regarding D/s? (4/19/2009 12:23:33 PM)
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Wow... I had to go away and think for a bit... that can take a while! lol Hey I was busy! Training up some sweet submissive is busy domina work!
While life goes by and changes from time to time I find that I must change with it. As much as I may grumble about it, I do really enjoy some of those changes and am challenged by others. I would love to say in some small way that I was correct in everything I wanted and that is all I wanted... I always knew there may come a time for some changes and I was opening up to them and yet fighting them at the same time. Not because of what was in me or not in me... but becasue life has a way of proving that you have control of so little sometimes.
While I wanted mono, I also felt it would take more than one man to fulfill me. Not just sexually, but in all ways. I didn't feel it was fair to have more than one because of my illness. It is bad enough to leave and maybe break a heart... but the chance of doing that to two... ouch. I also thought of preparing my submissive for that time and what might be able to happen to ease the pain when the time does come.
Dont get me wrong... I don't plan on leaving any time soon and I am going strong in many ways. I could live for many years and live well... but there is that chance that I could not. So anyone daring to take a chance with that is basically a hero in a sense. That's how I see it.
So while I struggle to find my path and the things that change along that path, I open my eyes and mind to many other things and what can happen. I've come to think that two or three and a family just may be the answer to a lot of thing that life throws my way and that of anyone involved with me. I have been poly before and I am drawn more to thinking about it off and on. So... I will say cheers and let's see what happens... this could get very interesting!
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