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yourdarkdesire -> Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 1:57:35 PM)

Three years ago I was directed to this site by a friend who thought I might find it interesting.  His intention was that I read the boards and learn.  He never meant for me to actually create a profile and interact with others.

I am not sorry I did.  I have made some wonderful friends here.

Two and 1/2 years ago I met a Dominant who has become the centre of my D/s life. Like all couples - we have had issues in the past.  But last night I was hurt belong belief when I found out that I have been lied to and cheated on.  Now - don't get me wrong.  We live far away from each other.  I cannot be all that I think he needs.  I have encouraged him to find someone. 

But to find out ...... from her ...... that he has been involved - face to face - with someone else for the last year ......................

To me that is unforgiveable.

So my time here has come to an end.  I will be part of this community until Friday.  I'm sorry Red - I know its a lousy birthday present.  The purpose of this thread is to give me an opportunity to say good bye to those who have come to mean soooo much to me.  I use Yahoo and MSN so we can stay in touch that way.




yourdarkdesire -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:02:50 PM)

My first farewell is to sirsholly.  Holly - you have become more than a friend to me - you have become that sister I never had.  I have you on yahoo and promise will stay in touch.  Between your LO and my Apple, I know we have years of stories to share between us.  Thank you SOOOOO much for all you care and support as I have dealt with my health issues.  I will keep you updated if things change.  I don't expect that we will ever have the chance to actually meet face to face - I wouldn't be that lucky.  I love you Holly.




Phoenixpower -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:06:51 PM)

I am sorry to hear that you are going to leave...Just wanted to tell you that it is a shame when it goes the way how you experienced it, but that despite some disasters I had on here I did not let them pull me down to get off the board. Because yes, there are some idiots on here, but they are also off the board available sometimes and just because this one behaved as bad as he did would not necessarily stop me to move away from here. My motivation also lacked a lot end of last year but the support I received from some gorgeous people on here during that time got me through (different circumstances then you, but bad big time as well) and at the moment I am in contact with a gorgeous guy I met on here (if it works out or not depends if I pissed him off already this weekend or not *lol*). Best wishes in whatever you are doing xxx




dreamofthemoon -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:09:55 PM)

Hugs, boozy bug!!!  i'm so sorry this happened to you.  Sorrier yet to see you leaving us.  Say it isn't true?  [sm=river.gif]

Cmail coming your way.




yourdarkdesire -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:10:22 PM)

My second goodbye goes to Bear!  My friend and confidante.  I wish you all the best in life my darling.  I know that you will get what you want.  I still think you're batting for the wrong team [:)]  I will see you on yahoo.




yourdarkdesire -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:27:25 PM)

My thrid good-bye goes to Aylee, the only woman I have ever even considered.  I know that the Apple and Butterhead would be great playmates.  Thank you also, for all your support during my time online.  I will continue with my program - including the dreaded journalling.  Keep an eye out for those pesky tornadoes, and know that you and yours will be in my thoughts.




PMnpanthercub -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:36:28 PM)

well that sucks!  i can relate to your hurt, been there, done that more times than i care to mention.  i hope that your future brings you everything you deserve.  i hope the ex's future brings him everything he has earned, given his behavior.  maybe after awhile you can come back and chat with old friends and make some new ones, people who know the real meaning of friendship, committment, trust, those pesky little details.  take time to heal, and take care of yourself.

PM




DarkFury -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:36:35 PM)

It will be sad to see you leave YDD though I know that you must do what you believe is best for you. Yes you are right, there is always yahoo to stay in contact as well as MSN.
I wish you all the best in your life and wish nothing but good things to come your way. And it is a good possibility that at some point in time, the cub and I will be taking a trip your way as one of my goals is to show him all the things I love about this country I call home.





dreamerdreaming -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 2:56:34 PM)

  It really sucks that you were deceived by your dom for the past year, I'm so sorry! But I'm not quite clear on why you are leaving CM because of it.

If I avoid all the places where bad things happened to me, I'd never go back to some of my favorite places on the planet, ever again. And that would be like being victimized all over again. It would be letting the bad people win. I refuse to do that. 
Instead I take a break from the places, and go back later at my leisure and reclaim them. Couldn't you just take a break- maybe an extended break, whatever- just so you get time to heal... And then come back?  Maybe with a new screen name? That way, you would be acting instead of reacting. Why let the bully drive you from the playground forever? Wouldn't it make more sense to (continue to) come and use CM on your own terms, instead of letting one asshole ruin it for you?




LadyHibiscus -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:00:33 PM)

Beerbug!!  I am so sorry this happened to you...  and I hope that you will come back to play with US, who are your friends!




BKSir -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:04:25 PM)

Aw bug... *HUGS*  I can't tell you how sorry I am to hear about what happened, and that you're leaving.  I know we didn't know eachother well, but I did always enjoy your posts and banter on here, and know that you'll be missed by a good many people.




dreamofthemoon -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:05:21 PM)

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ORIGINAL: dreamerdreaming

It really sucks that you were deceived by your dom for the past year, I'm so sorry! But I'm not quite clear on why you are leaving CM because of it.

If I avoid all the places where bad things happened to me, I'd never go back to some of my favorite places on the planet, ever again. And that would be like being victimized all over again. It would be letting the bad people win. I refuse to do that. 
Instead I take a break from the places, and go back later at my leisure and reclaim them. Couldn't you just take a break- maybe an extended break, whatever- just so you get time to heal... And then come back?  Maybe with a new screen name? That way, you would be acting instead of reacting. Why let the bully drive you from the playground forever? Wouldn't it make more sense to (continue to) come and use CM on your own terms, instead of letting one asshole ruin it for you?

i'll agree with you there, dreamerdreaming.

Why not just take a break for awhile, ydd?




yourdarkdesire -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:20:41 PM)

my sarcasm will be missed???? WOOTLES!!!!

I may come back in time - I know better than to ever say never.  It is just right now I know myself and I know that even in my present state of mind - this man has an incredible pull on me.  I would always be looking for him, wondering what he was up to, who he is talking to.  I am not saying that I am doing this the right way - it is just the best way for now.

Besides - summer is coming, the kids are busy and hubby and I are taking the little ones out to Vancouver Island for 3 weeks.  I need to go through CM withdrawal before then!

Gosh I love you guys




LadyHibiscus -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:21:46 PM)

VANCOUVER ISLAND???  Take me, take MEEEEEEE!!![:D]




yourdarkdesire -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:22:50 PM)

no - not VANCOUVER ISLAND

more like ..... THREE WEEKS ON VANCOUVER ISLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [:D][:D][:D][:D][:D]




BKSir -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:25:42 PM)

Wow!  That sounds like a fun time!  M. knows better to take me to Vanc.  I'd bail out of the car and take off like a shot to chinatown and he'd NEVER hear from me again. ;) 




purepleasure -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:29:39 PM)

beerbug, you know you're going to be missed.  And, I hope in time, you will come back to us lurveable nuts.  Ok, I really meant holly and rain by lurvable nuts, but the rest of us too!!!




fluffypet61 -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:34:13 PM)

i don't what to say - i bearly got to know you.  i have enjoyed reading your posts and the others here seem to really like you.  i look forward to meeting you again under more comfortable circumstances. 
In the meantime, {{{HUGS}}}  and flowers.[sm=flowers.gif]




angelikaJ -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:47:30 PM)

ydd

This makes me very sad.

I don't know you.
I did enjoy your posts.

You are beloved by some of my favorite posters, which makes you more than ok in my book.


I am sorry you are going through this.

I look forward to getting to know you when you come back.

I hope you have a grand time this summer.

(((hugs)))






thornhappy -> RE: Shattered Dreams ...... (5/4/2009 3:59:53 PM)

* hugz for the beerbug *

I'll miss your * hic * convershashions * hic *

Please come back when you're ready!




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