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RiotGirl -> RE: full of shit (2/5/2006 6:30:39 PM)
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I checked with the moderators, and they said, "she's not exactly full of shit."
As for me, when I read your posts, I see a lack of pretense and a revealing directness to your writing.
As for being 'full of shit' in general, I think its necessary to know one in RT and see how they are in other contexts. So, by my own criterea, I must disqualify mysefl.
Here is my #1 MB value above all else. Is the poster a good read?
I can honestly say that I read yours posts and don't skip over them. How's that as a barometer?
Here's another thing. My Mistressr and I actually talked a bit about you today, wondering about being able to take 40 strokes with cane. I suppose, we were trying to determine if you were full of shit. I noted that you said when you got five strokes within one minute, you needed to stop and couldn't take it anymore (the pain being overwhelming.) This added realism to your claim. It seemed quite feasible, albeit brave and impressive, that you could take 40 strokes if they were spead out over time, giving you time to settle.
What what what? The Mods who? Who do they know that knows me in my life? UH! i feel vulenerable. i shall laugh at my silliness now. ha ha. Okay, seriously.. mods who? How would they know to be able to say anything for certian? And if they could, that would mean they actually know me. now WHO knows me. Heh. i'm abit anal about what information i give and where i give it. Cant help it, i'm actually a secretive person. Ya wouldnt know it here, but i am. Master's biggest problem with me is when ever he asks me "whats wrong" i always say "nothing". i'll even go over a month saying "nothing" Ug and i've had to REALLY learn to watch body language cos he watches it too. i know its bad. But sometimes its better then being pissed off and saying things i'll regret. Ug, theres actually only 4 links from collarme to my day to day life. 3 of them i'm pretty assured dont even bother with the forums. (and i've checked) and the 4th i have alot of trust in so i dont worry about her. But uuuuuuuuuug whose linking here and life? Ug anyone? i thought i had all loose ends covered. This is supposed to be my okay place to talk. i feel threatened, vulerable and my anxiety has risen. LOL (i kno i kno i'm a nut and i'm wierd)
Its a very good barometer. Ya know alot of ppl tell me they see a lack of "pretense" and i reveal myself and one of those ppl just said i was full of BS. UG i should invite him over so he can go through day to day with me.
oops forgot the cane part. LOLOLOLOL its NOT brave or IMPRESSIVE. i didnt say to Master, HEY lets give me 40 strokes. Usually i'm abit reluctant when he takes that cane out.. okay more then reluctant. And half the time i get abit pissy as i dont understand HOW he could think i could take 40 and not move. Hrump its like he's setting me up to fail.. his own sadistic pleasures. As for spread out.. he usually raises it up.. and sometimes waits. Because i anticipate them. He doesnt want me to anticipate but golly gee i cant help it. So i usually get hooded. Honestly i think anyone could take 40 or more. Lets see the last time, when i got really into it.. what got me into it was when he would actually stop for awhile.. and being hooded i was like where'd ya go? Course i had like several thought processes running, like uh oh whats he getting now and uuuh he's gonna catch me unaware and i'm not gonna tense tho i know i shouldnt tense, but still he's gonna catch me completely unware.. and well when none came, i'd start to settle and then it'd start to feel good and even though i'd be tied 4 corners, i'd manage to be able to get my rump up and wiggle it as in begging (look at me!). Which honest to say, that was the only time i was ever actually into it.
personally i think he just pushes me. Pushes me past what i think can endure to sometimes the very brink and sometimes past it. then he hugs me, lets me know i AM okay, everythings alright.. and goes on. i think he's just really good at reading body language.
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