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Prinsexx -> RE: For fakes sake (a rant) (5/13/2009 3:05:27 PM)
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
I'm not sure if I'm the only one here who is getting a little more peed off by this special brand of sanctimonious neonazism that appears to be spreading through this and other sites like some sort of nefarious cancer.
My dearest friend... you're not the only one. i got so peed off i stopped posting. Grew very very tired of the bullying and 'conformity club'.But you know what we said the last time we spoke? We have to walk out the door anyways. Life is real eh? And all too real at times.
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
I'm writing about the constant bitching, carping, whining and bellyaching over who is a fake, who is a wannabe, who has the bogus profiles and so on, and so on, and so on..
.. and on and on and on.... like a stuck record, over and over again.
Well i'm real. You're real. We are both very real indeed, larger than life, amazing people who have been through roller-coasters of a life. Your life Stella would make a block buster of a film. Mine would be a best seller of an autobiography no-one would actually believe.
To be honest? There are times when i wannabe. i wannabe be anybody, i mean just anybody other than i am. The responsibility of my life is just too much to bear. Often. Then again there are those brief moments, nearing the spiritual, when i am so thankful to be exactly who i am, where i am, and when i am, it simply takes my breath away. i say a prayer of thanks.
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
It's getting tedious, it's negative, and it goes right against the grain of WIITWD.
No. i mean i simply don't agree with you. i find this so-called lifestyle brutal. Heavenly at times. But brutal. Honesty is like that. i rarely use the WIITWD because all i can be certain of is WIITID. And i am not always that certain of what it is that i do. 'It' changes. It's in a constant state of flux.
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
You see for one thing, you don't know whether someone is fake or not. (You here is generic).
At best you have an opinion based on a groundless accusation.
No. That's true. i don't know who is 'fake' or who is 'real'. All i have to go on is what others 'put out' about themselves. i have a sneaking suspicion that, in actuality, i would probably really like those whom i happen to 'dislike' on line. i don't know why i say that even. There's no empirical evidence to any of it.
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
An opinion that nobody in particular is really all that bothered about.
What is it to you whether someone is fake or not? Does their presence cause you any emotional distress? Are they hurting you? Upsetting you?
When i'm up, when i'm strong, nothing bothers me. But when i am down, when i have a problem, when i have an issue, when i am lonely, in transition between relationships. dynamic all up in the air, i'm more likely to be posting here looking for advise and support. i can truly say, that on the whole, i have found support here, more likely in private emails from those who have given the time, read what i have said, and reached out to write.
Friends i have made here, by mail, and real friends like you, whom i have met and stayed with, what they say resounds in my head often throughout the day. i take comfort from those who understand, because it can be a lonely life. Those who master us (gnerically speaking) cannot be expected to complete us entirely and be the ones who supply our every need. This is just my opinion.
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
Just what is it about someone you feel is fake that gets to you?
i'm not bothered by fake. Some of my teeth are fake. My hair is fake. A couple of my joints are fake. Mt smile is often fake.. i have learned to smile when i feel ill or tired and need to carry on in a professional role. For the sake of others. i attempt not to lie and to tell the truth always. But i lie by omission. A passivity of lies. Is that fake?
What's fake? It's the no-man's land between truth and lies. It's the battle ground. It's where we are caught out, defenseless, dithering and running in both directions at once. Exposed. Silhouetted. That's what fake is. We are obvious to others out there in no-man's-generic-gender-land.
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
And what makes you more real than them?
Because i am in my own skin and not theirs, or yours.....
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
Your opinion?
The problem is, (in my opinion..............) that it's all opinion. All is opinon. All opinon jostling for predominance over all the other opinions. Once i got that the basis even of scientific method was that there was no such thing as fact onlt that which occurs significantly over and above what migh happen by chance. No such thing as fact. All is opinion all is....
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ORIGINAL: stella41b
Yeah right.
Stella i'm in love. i've started to consider, in a deeper way that ever before, well attempting to consider how to see myself from someone else's point of view. Well trying to see myself from His point of view. what i'm learning is that my opinion does matter. He telling me that. And also that my opinon doesn't matter when it conflicts with or creates a conflict with His opinion(s). That the conflict isn't worth the conflict. But that between us. i'm not in a dynamic of that order with anyone else. And so i'm less guarded with the results of my opinions upon others. Less thoughtful. Sarcastic at worst. Ironic at best. Can you tell the difference?
Yeah right....
much love Stella.
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