MasterOwnskitty
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Dear Candy,
i read what you wrote and i hope i've gotten from it what you've intended for the reader to "get".
What you've written is very deep meaningful to you and i think you should be commended for your willingness to share such personal feelings -- the kind people usually keep to themselves in a journal somewhere and usually are not shared out of fear of ridicule or judgement from O/others.
i can relate to what you've written very well because Master and i do a lot of soul-searching in these ways. W/we often are working to try and combine M/s-BDSM-spiritual aspects together because W/we are also in a love relationship and would like to see all of it as a whole in how W/we relate to each other. W/we intend to be married and so W/we approach the aspect of incorporating those principles as a life-long endeavor.
i have often pondered the issue of subs and slaves relying so heavily on, and put blind faith in, their Masters. It's through my observation and experience that oftentimes subs/slaves are let down so hard because Masters are only human and thus have human frailty and limitations. As much as a Master and/or his submissive would like for Him to be "God-like" in the human relationship, truly no human Master can be "God" and nor meet the spiritual needs that "God" can. (If it's not God for you, put Who or What you want there.)
This is in no way meant to be disrespectful but is where i feel BDSM and spirituality come together, whether it's denied or not:
Many sub/slaves look up to their Masters lovingly, just wishing and hoping and pleading for Them to meet their every need emotionally. Many Masters say to Their subs and/or slaves: "Rely on me...rely on me..." and even if the Master wishes for it, He or She cannot be completely relied upon to fill this void. However, many times the sub/slave thinks that this One can, because he or she has been told that He or She can. But it is only the physical and emotional parts that can be dealt with -- not the spiritual parts which are also a part of the emotional. This is where the disappointment comes in. And this disappointment is amplified by the fact that the void still exists, no matter how much "homage" is paid to this One who is supposed to be able to heal those feelings...because He or She can't.
The longing to be subservient and reliant on a Master is one that i have had for years. It had occured to me -- especially in living it day in and day out -- that a Master, no matter how skillful, can't completely meet the inner needs of an individual that only spirituality can. Spirituality, even if shared with another, is individual -- it is between Y/you and Y/your Source. Even knowing this, a part of me still tries to derive this type of satisfaction from O/our relationship. i've found that in doing so, i wind up putting what i feel to be a lot of unnecessary pressure on my Master to meet those needs -- and realized that it may not be entirely fair to Him for me to do so. Just a thought.
i know these issues bring the element of autonomy into the M/s relationship that many wish to eliminate, and i'm not speculating that there is not any "right" or "wrong" way. These are my own personal thoughts and it had occured to me, that upon trying to eliminate autonomy in O/our own relationship, there was this theory that surfaced for me. i don't intend for this to create any kind of a wedge. i just found meaning in this post and found it to be closely linked to what i'd been hashing out in my own mind.
Am i even close to what you were talking about, candy?! Lol! 
~dawna
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No one person can fulfill the emotional needs of another entirely; people need friends, family, neighbors, kids, etc. Even M/s couples must live "in" the world. 
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