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Termyn8or -> RE: What the FUCK happened here????? (6/18/2009 9:01:37 AM)
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I really don't know what to call it, but count me in. Even though I still imbibe, it is not the same. I do not want to get rip-roaring drunk, or so high that stupid things like shadows amuse me, or I forget things. Except work. Once home I strive to forget work. I just don't need to go farther.
In the past any day was a good party day. Now I turn down things quite a bit. Anything prepared, powders, pills, distilled spirits. Beer and pot only. Beer is easy to regulate, get a fine tuned buzz. It can help with those aches and pains a bit, not alot but just a little. Burn one and it's like "My leg is still aching, but so what ?". In other words accepting it and thinking past it. Perhaps it's more of an analgesic than anything else at this point. Letting my mind slow down after the workday, things like that.
The word evolution was used, I agree but think growing up could be used equally in it's place. Certain things I just don't want, for example PCP. I used to love the shit, but having experience with it, I know there is no way to have a mellow buzz on it. It's all or nothing. Forms of acid or mescaline are out as well, I no longer want to mess with my brain in that manner. It has become too important to me.
I have already stated on the boards that I believe that all forms of addiction are closely related to certain common psychological traits. Am I now saying that it is possibly a sign of immaturity ?
(I don't know what to say, am I drawing a conclusion from my own post here ? I'll leave it stand and you decide).
T
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