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What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 6:57:46 PM

LookieNoNookie

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I was just thinking of something....something happened in my life....I can't quite put my finger on the exact timing.....

When I was a kid (up to 40 or so), any time I got a script for Vicodins....I was in all the way and those 60 pills lasted maybe as much as a 2 day weekend.

I told my doctor about 8 years ago (I was 42 at the time) "no more Vicodins, heavy duty cough syrup....nothing that isn't available over the counter....I'm a user...and if you give it to me...it's a party....unless you see my femur poking out of my jeans....aspirin or motrin will do just fine".

I had a bad pain of some sort about 6 months back...can't remember what it was for now (the mind is going now)....I just remember it was so bad that I called him up on his cell and said...."10 Vicodins at XX pharmacy....ASAP....I'll pick them up in 20 minutes".

I think it was my back or something.

Anyway, he said "Are you sure? Is it that serious?" I said "Yep....it is...this is gonna last a few days, I'm certain....I'm already driving towards the pharmacy". He knew me well enough to know if I willingly made this call and stepped over our previous agreement....I was hurting.

I got back in the car after paying for the pills, they sell soda there so I got one and took 2 Vicodins.

Suffice it to say, they didn't hit until I was safely in my driveway....and the next morning I drove the remaining 8 pills down to my buddy who has severe migraines...and he was as happy to get them as I was to give them to him.

I used to eat those things like candy....I bought 200 at a time from this online doctor in Alaska, and spent a mere 10 days taking all of them.

Ahhhh well.....just another marker in my old age....now that I can afford all the drugs I want (and have doctors that'll give them to me with not much more than a phone call)....I not only don't want them anymore....they aren't even as much fun as they used to be.

So....I gotta ask.....what the FUCK happened here?????

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 6:59:48 PM

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Evolution.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:01:34 PM

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Age. Welcome to getting older.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:02:00 PM

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Evolution.

Hahahahahahaha....I think your sig line says it all:

"You don't have to stay anywhere, forever."

(By the way....welcome back).

Stick around a while....and by the way....get a haircut....you're representing the firm you know.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:04:14 PM

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I refuse to ever touch certain substances because I know I have an addictive personality. You may just be finally listening to that self preservation part of your brain. Definitely evolution.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:10:38 PM

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Lookie,

I perved your profile to see your age. Quite simply you are a bit older and wiser and making better choices after considering long term consequences and potential outcomes.

Ya ain't da grouchy ole timer on the front porch yet but it seems you are looking to live that long.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:11:15 PM

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yep...that's why I can't even finish a drink anymore...

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:11:29 PM

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quote:

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quote:

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Evolution.

Hahahahahahaha....I think your sig line says it all:

"You don't have to stay anywhere, forever."

(By the way....welcome back).

Stick around a while....and by the way....get a haircut....you're representing the firm you know.

Thanks for the wb

And hey, be glad for the change you wrote about. Too many people doing too much Vicodin, Xanex, and/or Soma, and I've been watching them drop like flies, including my best friend.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:14:57 PM

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 7:17:31 PM

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Lookie,

I perved your profile to see your age (so you were the one in 2009!). Quite simply you are a bit older and wiser and making better choices after considering long term consequences and potential outcomes. (It's a gift...even I don't know how I do it myself sometimes ).

Ya ain't da grouchy ole timer on the front porch yet but it seems you are looking to live that long. (Yeah...that does seem to fit the bill....I was thinking of sticking around for a while and figured at some point that my past lifestyle preferences just didn't seem to be paying the rent anymore).

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 8:09:35 PM

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tolerance, the more you take the more tolerant your body becomes, As you have not taken any for a while you no longer have any tolerance. The same applies to any drug-that is why often addicts accidentally overdose after being clean for a period of time. They go back to the previous dose they took and kill themselves by accident.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 8:21:05 PM

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Oh man.

Now I am confused.

I have no idea what your post means.....

They don't write for that EVEN per same day surgery.   Only if you insist- --- then per haps.

Celebrex- is what you would get today. Dont waste your money on it. Bextra- --all the stuff is crap. Junk science. OTC ibuprofen. Chirprator
...then if you are persistent- you get sent to a "pain clinic" where they further decide you are depressed too- so a p-dr.     The pain clinic is not there to approve opiods- it is there to DENY the opoids.

Of course- it hardly mater because lots of money is rolling into the systerm= and by the time all the varioous drs write the RXs and 10 years have passed- then you are a blob of chemical soup.

(like I would know??? ha!! )

Yeah.

You cant buy the stuff online.    I know all about that. Ill explain it some time.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/17/2009 9:26:54 PM

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quote:

ORIGINAL: LookieNoNookie
Ahhhh well.....just another marker in my old age....now that I can afford all the drugs I want (and have doctors that'll give them to me with not much more than a phone call)....I not only don't want them anymore....they aren't even as much fun as they used to be.

So....I gotta ask.....what the FUCK happened here?????

I'll take a little different tack than most of the others. I had a similar experience with alcohol some years ago. I was never an alcoholic, but the definition was merely a technicality, really. I drank between a fifth and quart of whiskey every night, and i mean every night, for 10 or 15 years. I just absolutely loved being drunk. I lived for it. I never started drinking before 7 or 8 PM, but once I started, I practically needed a funnel to get the whole bottle down fast enough.

Everything worked out fine until I hit my early 30s, at which time i started to get hangovers. Which i quickly discovered I didn't like very much at all. So I got out of the habit of getting drunk. I'd still drink fairly often, but never to the point of actually getting drunk. Things went on like that for a few years, and one night just for the hell of it, I decided to tie one on again just for old time's sake. So I got plastered, and sat back waiting for that good ol' feeling I remembered from years gone by to settle in and make me feel all warm and happy inside.

And you know what? It never did. Oh, I got drunk all right, but it really wasn't much fun. Whatever it was that used to be absolutely magical about it, just wasn't there anymore. It was just... being drunk. Whoopee.

It took me quite a while to figure out what had happened, but I think the way it worked was that when I was younger, there was something seriously missing from my life. There was something in me that was deeply unhappy, and alcohol was the only thing that made me feel OK about myself and my life. The only time I could forget how miserable I felt was when i was drunk. As I grew up a bit, and started to find other things in my life that made me feel good about who I was, alcohol didn't really serve any purpose anymore. There was no longer any hole that needed filling.

So I dunno. That's the way it worked for me. Maybe that's what happened to you, too? You pulled your head out of your ass and found ways to become a content, satisfied human being, without drugs?

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 3:49:04 AM

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With your past history of abuse....get your liver tested. The narcotic in Vicodin is not going to kill you, but the Tylenol sure will.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 3:55:18 AM

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*throws a pressure cuff on holly's mouth and inflates it and drags her off to calm her down somewhere with a straightjacket

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 4:14:32 AM

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*throws a pressure cuff on holly's mouth and inflates it and drags her off to calm her down somewhere with a straightjacket

Damnit Angel...you have it around my neeeeeeeeeck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 5:47:11 AM

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I would say tolerance, u took it for so long it dosnt work the same way anymore,or u just dont have a "taste" for it.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 5:48:44 AM

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What happened?

You grew up.

When you grow up, you lay aside childish things. Drug abuse is an adolescent habit. Very selfish, immature, short-sighted behavior.

You are a man now.

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 5:57:21 AM

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Ha!

I'm taking more pills as I get older...

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RE: What the FUCK happened here????? - 6/18/2009 7:02:33 AM

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ORIGINAL: sirsholly

With your past history of abuse....get your liver tested. The narcotic in Vicodin is not going to kill you, but the Tylenol sure will.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just made a serious post on a Lookie thread??? heeeeelp me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She is correct. Accetmehine is added to stop- well- "junkies" . Lipitor was frying my liver! I hate junk science!

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