RLMK -> RE: Just a quick question (6/19/2009 10:37:32 PM)
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All old jocks face this -- even old racehorses -- a woman's not going to hold up, nor is an inexperienced man, in all likelihood. Is it actually sexual, or do you just want to get bloody again? Essentially, are you horny, or do you crave what you felt during a bout? For me, my bloodlust comes and goes -- it doesn't show up too often these days, but I do still occasionally get very self-destructive. If what you're describing is bloodlust, then I strongly suggest you don't get it mixed up w. your Dom tendencies. At one time in my life, I thought the best thing was the look of fear in an opponent's eyes, as they went to glass. I remember being being overjoyed, and fully understanding the power of that word, at the thought of my own destruction. IMO, that's far too dangerous a feeling to play with, and is a side of men that women are not meant to see. It is an emotional state which is a weapon, meant to be used against those who would hurt those we love. It can be developed, and honed through training and competition, but it remains something to make us psychopaths when those we love need us to become psychopaths. If you just recently had to stop, it'll take time -- coaching can be good, but you have to remember to go easy on your "kids" and watching a contest might be too difficult.
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