Mavis -> RE: crying (4/16/2006 1:55:16 AM)
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i most often cry when really, really frustrated. i don't generally ascribe to the stuff emotions thing, but i do have times when i absolutely refuse to cry, or am shamed by doing it. good cry = being touched deeply.. orgasm cry, thankful for forgiveness cry.. the signal something is about to hit a new level of understanding cry.. but the one that makes me maddest at myself is when i know i have done something displeasing, and i can't get my finger on the root of the behavior, and i'm still wading thru it. this is a time i refuse to cry because it distracts from the digging.. where eventually i'll get to that good cry of revelation and clarity. The other Bad cry is when being disciplined or corrected. Even if i have true remorse, i know in the back of my mind that crying ellicits the protector / comforter response in my Master, and i have no right to be manipulating Him into comforting or protective feeling right then. i realised He might perceive that as being hard hearted during correction, so i explained why i was shutting that off on purpose, and it was agreed it was appropriate for that time alone, but those emotions would be dealt with .. you guessed it, once W/we get to that revelation/ clarity place. But i am curious, do the Tops who have that dacryphilia fetish still get turned on by tears no matter if they're appropriate for the situation or not?
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