TexasMaam
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The barbs, insults and flames on these boards have no impact on Me so no apology is necessary, but thank you.
I’m not here to win a popularity contest. I’m here to gain insight, ideas and feedback about WIITWD, and to sometimes offer a thought or share an experience when My muse to write moves Me.
I also enjoy 'stirring things up' tongue in cheek, which is often misinterpreted, which does not bother Me in the least.
That said, in actuality, sea, I did require much from farmlandsub before we got together this time around.
My relationship w CadillacSub, (as he will now forever be thought of in My heart, many thanks to cloudboy for that moniker!), began quite a few years ago.
I won’t go into the details but suffice to say I was not his priority at the time. He wanted BDSM, he wanted a Domme, he wanted to explore his needs. Our relationship ended in bitter conflict.
I have rarely ever taken a sub back who failed Me. On those rare occasions it has always been a disaster. This time seems to be the exception.
When CadillacSub and I began to communicate again, he professed his undying wish to prove himself to Me over and over again, and of course I did not believe he was sincere. I was unmoved. And yet, there was still something there, a connection I had not felt with a sub for many, many years: a connection I thought worth the risk of trying to redevelop.
Ergo, I truly put him to the test for many, many long months before I would ever consider seeing him in a BDSM context.
I did demand tribute, I asked first for this and then for that, whether it was time, or a specific item, or a given assignment, one after the other I issued request after request and he complied.
We danced this dance for over a year before I began to take him seriously at all.
Not only did I demand tribute, I demanded his complete submission, knowing his whereabouts at all times, I demanded he be accessible any time day or night, I demanded he accept and understand My anger, bitterness and resentment over all that had gone wrong the first time around. I demanded his time; I demanded his money if I felt like it; I demanded things I needed; I demanded things I wanted; I demanded silly, superfluous things, just to see how he would respond.
He submitted. Completely, in ways I will never share on this forum.
In short, anytime I asked, anything I asked, the man ran faster than a speeding bullet, was more powerful than a locomotive, & leapt tall buildings at a single bound…….anything, and I mean anything I required, he humbly, quietly, sincerely and immediately provided or accomplished or complied with.
He went so far above and beyond anything I asked of him that he finally got My attention and My time. He went so far beyond any expectations that he finally won My heart.
If you ask him, I am certain he will tell you that it has been a slow, painful, frustrating and arduous road for us to get to where we are today.
I’m certain he’d also tell you it’s no picnic, even now.
Because he continues to make the sacrifices necessary for our relationship to endure, and believe Me he is making tremendous personal sacrifices on a daily basis, our relationship has deepened far beyond the point were we broke it off so many years ago.
It has deepened to the point where I no longer push him beyond his own resources just for the sake of doing so. I wouldn’t think of it.
Today, we function as a unit, with equal input as to what our next priorities should be. In addition he continues to amaze and delight Me every single day with his devotion and generosity.
So it is true that a “do me” sub, an “awful sub”, can change, grow and develop into that ‘CadillacSub’ we Dommes dream about.
But first, “the sub (light bulb) has to really want to change”……
All the best,
; )
TMquote:
ORIGINAL: undergroundsea
I do not see you to be a golddigger and the fact that you were with Manthing before he was able to do what he is now attests as much.
By my definition, what Manthing has given you are gifts because they are not a prerequisite to the relationship and come from the sincerity that is apparent in the time and energy he has given to help your family and friends. I think his sincerity merits praise.
Your words left room for interpretation and I apologize for taking them in the wrong spirit to the extent I have done so.
Cheers,
Sea
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