stella41b
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Joined: 10/16/2007 From: SW London (UK) Status: offline
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I just feel I have to come back here.. I'm a transgendered female, or if you prefer a transsexual, a 'trannie', a faggot, a poofter, a ladybody, a batty man, queer, social misfit, whatever... see me as you like, it doesn't matter much. I'm someone labelled as 'socially unacceptable' by a considerable number of people. Wanting to know what is in my underweat and my plans for what is in my underwear is one of the most popular topics for most people who get to know me, and my life is puncutated quite often by people excluding me, people being rude to me, people trying to out me, rejecting me, and so on. I refuse to have a persecution complex. Yes most of the people in this world don't accept me and don't understand, but am I really any different here to anyone else here? I mean I suffer no worse dscrimination and prejudice than someone who is female, or overweight, or black, or gay, or lesbian, or in some way perceived by someone else to be different from what is 'normal'. I've been on this sharp end of people's prejudices for a considerable number of years and it put me through hell. Until one day when I realised that none of this was coming from any group of people but from individuals. And this is the point I'd really like to make here - seeing as I, like many others of you have been reading a lot about tributes, fakes, scammers, liars, and so on and so forth. Yes it's easy to gain that false sense of privilege and entitlement and take out your emotions on a group of people who are doing something you perceive to be wrong. But we are dealing with individuals and none of those individuals are you. Just because you have an account here and a profile it doesn't really entitle you to much more than having an account here, having a profile and being able to post on these boards. Other than that you're on your own. Is it really too much to ask for you to move on and let it go? Is it too much to ask you to stop for a moment and try to imagine yourself as another individual, someone else? Is it too much to stop and just for a moment try to see things from that other perspective? Well yes I guess sometimes it is.. not just for other people, I'm writing here just as much about myself. But you know away from these boards, away from BDSM and away from this computer I've been continuing a friendship with a friend who has been fighting alcohol issues and heroin addiction. She's a friend who has gone through a divorce, been thrown out on the streets by her mother, lost her job, and I've spent two years listening to her excuses, whining, bitching, bellyaching, anger, regret, drunken rages, and yes, she's smacked me and kicked me a few times. I've collected her at 3am in the morning from the police station, carried her from a minicab to my sofa and draped a duvet over her, sat by her watching her sleep and dealt with her hangover the next morning. She's been through hell, I've watched as all her other friends have turned away from her, but she's been dry for the past six months, she's been going out looking for work, getting involved in training, and she's well worth all what she's put me through. We were talking yesterday. She's still got some way to go, only she can walk that path, and I've assured her that no matter what happens, no matter whether she fails or succeeds, I will always be her friend. Coming back to the boards I assume that on any given day somebody somewhere is going through hell or having a bad day. We all have our weaknesses, we all have our issues and our weak points, the times when we can't cope, the times when we're struggling, and the times when we're so pissed off that we really shouldn't be here to post, but we do. And I have to ask all those who go on about people whining and complaining, are you just as intolerant of those people around you and close to you as you are of people here on the boards? I mean after all they are just like you, just like me, they're individuals too.
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