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Wereshark -> Need some advice (8/20/2009 9:20:42 PM)
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Hey everyone,
I'm 23, male, been into crossdressing from a really early age. I did it because it felt good, and was a really exciting experience, and that feeling hasn't changed. Although my taste in what I like to wear has changed. I'm really into anything that's just plain slutty, metal or punky. (Metal/Punk girls drive me absolutely nuts). I don't dress up very often, maybe an article of clothing once a week tops. I've only ever gone all out a handful of times in my life, and never in public (I could prolly pass with a wig and a pair of shades).
However, I'm worried about my mental well-being at this point. I've never told anyone that knew me face to face, and I'm deeply paranoid about them finding out it's what I'm into. To top it off, I came from a small town where stuff like this would get you ousted pretty quickly, maybe even beaten or at least threatened (Canada isn't as culturally sensitive as most people think). That doesn't bother me so much, it's the fact that I'm afraid I'll have a hard time developing connections with people. I've had one girlfriend in my life who I tried to ease into it by telling her about some of my lighter fetishes (stuff like bondage), but that didn't take and ended up driving us apart.
I would absolutely love to have a relationship with someone that encouraged or at least accepted it, and I'm looking and hopeful for that kind of connection. However, I'm worried that I'm obsessing about this (it's hard to spend a day without thinking about it) and I have absolutely no perspective on just how acceptable this sort of thing is to the majority public. I'm worried that keeping it hidden and suppressed is just going to make the obsession stronger and make it harder and harder to connect with people.
I suppose this was really more of a rant to get it off my chest. But if anyone has any anecdotes to share or reassurance, I would appreciate it.
Thanks! [image]http://forum.literotica.com/images/smilies/smile.gif[/image]
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