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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/1/2006 9:12:08 PM

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Yep. I can't turn myself into the "off" position. Ever since I realized what I am into, i've been stuck in "on" all the time.

Another thing that caught me off guard was masochism. I really didn't expect me to like being physically hurt, which seems to be the antithesis of self preservation. Sadisitc, yes. I've always been sadistic. I'm still having a constant argument between the logical half of my brain that wants to keep me alive and the masochistic side of my brain that wants the pain. Ultimately, the masochist wins out, even if it is something I'm never able to understand, regardless of how much I like it.

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/1/2006 9:32:08 PM

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My Dragon can turn the switch to on with just his voice. He has this tone that makes my knees weak and makes me usually want to drop to said knees.

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/1/2006 10:51:10 PM

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So awhile lateri asked him HOW that was possible. How was it possible for my body to betray me for him? i mean really

And of course he came up with a High Domly Kingly answer of "because your body does what i want it to do" and "because i own your body"

Which of course wasnt a good enough answer for me. i mean ownage isnt literal. Its like metaphorical. He doesnt LITERALLY own me nor can he literally own my body. (which of course he wouldntt answer when i popped up with THAT response)

So yes there is a question. Anyone else have a body that betrayed them? Anyone got an answer for me?

He can't "literally" own your body? Well I guess that depends on your definition of "literal" and "owning"...

My ex-Master while we were together.. owned me.. at least sexually anyway. I couldn't cum unless he actually told me to.. I didn't of course realize the depth of his control until one day.. we'd barely begun to play, I wasn't even wet or really even turned on.. He said "CUM NOW" and omg.. my body just did it without me. Freaked me out.

When we split.. I couldn't orgasm for anything. I needed that "Cum Now" to release. Thankfully it wore off in a couple weeks, but it was really frustrating. I kept thinking.. "Its my damn body, cum already"

LA is right.. at least partially.. You get used to a person.. their ways of doing things.. you associate that with sexual pleasure.. their voice, their touch, their smell.. when you add to that getting used to them controlling you and submitting to their whim.. And you might as well consider your vagina literally owned.

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/1/2006 11:10:11 PM

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my body will let me down, time and time again. At the most inopportune moments too.

Orgasm denial, and im hot for him, but im denied. I wanna play the game. And i cum in my sleep and screw the whole experience.

I am attuned to him now. I dont crack one off when he says Hello Little One, over my headset when he rings me at work. But its like lightening. I love it.

I used to pretend by holding back on my feelings, not declaring love first, so i wouldnt feel a prick when it went tits up etc. But as he pointed out, if it did go tits up, your gonna suffer anyhow, coz the feelings are there, denying them, dont alter anything. Doesnt protect you in ANY way.

And from a wise middle aged woman sage:
listen to the body, and you will live the dream. Listen to the head, and you'll miss out.

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 1:23:41 AM

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Maybe it is connected to when he pierced your clit?
(Sorry if someone else already said this, I didn't read the entire thread).

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 9:22:16 AM

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OMG rolling on the floor--now you have that in your google results! LMAO

LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!! Sweet... look up RiotGirl and you see "Traitorous Vagina!" Sweet

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I didn't mean for you -- this was related to my comments about bodies reacting even in rape or assault situations which you were not in. Right?

Actually i've been in them. i either dissociate or fight for survival. Its amazing what you can do when adrenaline is rushing through. If i'm more or less willingly have myself in them.. like molestation.. or being as LA said a slut for the wrong reasons.. i dissociate and if its against my will.. i tend to go into auto pilot. My brain starts calculating a million different things at the speed of light. "Can i get to the door and get the locks on the door unlocked before they can reach me" "how can i stop myself from being thrown down the stairs into those glass doors" "he's trying to rip my face off survive survive survive" Ever had anyone pin you to the floor and tell you you're not going to see the next day and the only thing you were worried about was being in a coffin with a broken nose? i usually black out when i go into auto pilot and it takes me months to years to remember what fully happened.

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partly because if I opened myself to them and being turned on by them, I'd had needed to face others things about myself I wasn' willing to face.

yeah i think i did it out of fear. What i was so terribly afraid of i dunno. Being open maybe? Too tightly wound? A need to hold on for dear life? LOL i always had this idea that when you orgasmed you lost control in away. i used to think i couldnt orgasm because i was too scared to lose control. God knows what happens when you arent on gaurd and aware of your surroundings.

Your wild guess is prolly close. But i think it has to do with finally feeling safe. Knowing nothing bad is going to happen at any moment and that i can let go, not be in control and STILL know that everything is okay. Yeah thats prolly it. i felt safe, was able to open up. He has even in his wisdom helped me learn to be safe from myself. LOL now hows that for a fine howdy do?

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 9:28:57 AM

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LOL okay SimplyV .. you got me there LOL So he CAN own my body. i suppose in some wierd way he does. i mean he does have the diretions to the on switch. Awesome how you could cum at "cum now" i couldnt imagine it.

No one said it brightspot. But i dunno. i actually think my vagina would be MORE frightened of him after that.. lol.

True that little one. And Sens that is toooooooooo funny.

Bear.. i mean no disrespect.. but the two of you sound like your getting off in this thread. Moaning and whispers.. LOL.. i suppose if one were to get off in a thread.. a thread with the word Vagina in the title is the best place. <grins at you> LOL

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 5:46:35 PM

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So yes there is a question. Anyone else have a body that betrayed them? Anyone got an answer for me?

Yes i'm highly peeved at myself... and yeah the title of this post crackes me up.

You're a lucky, lucky woman, and he's a lucky, lucky man...

congrats, and thanks for the laughter...

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 6:21:34 PM

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Dearest bear,

You melt the edges of my soul...and yet, no I see no private words from you...please resend?

Your always devoted,

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 6:23:03 PM

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Wilco but check your bulk mail too sweet....

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 7:12:58 PM

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I didn't mean for you -- this was related to my comments about bodies reacting even in rape or assault situations which you were not in. Right?

Actually i've been in them. i either dissociate or fight for survival. Its amazing what you can do when adrenaline is rushing through. If i'm more or less willingly have myself in them.. like molestation.. or being as LA said a slut for the wrong reasons.. i dissociate and if its against my will.. i tend to go into auto pilot. My brain starts calculating a million different things at the speed of light. "Can i get to the door and get the locks on the door unlocked before they can reach me" "how can i stop myself from being thrown down the stairs into those glass doors" "he's trying to rip my face off survive survive survive" Ever had anyone pin you to the floor and tell you you're not going to see the next day and the only thing you were worried about was being in a coffin with a broken nose? i usually black out when i go into auto pilot and it takes me months to years to remember what fully happened.

I think you're talking about a different event than the one of your original post.

I was refering to your original post with my "right?" comment.

The stuff you were responding to was what I spun it into generic comments about bodies and reactions and wasn't intended to dig up your past only to offer another suggestion as to why you might feel your body is out of your control.

Sorry if you misinterpreted what I was referring it. It was only meant to help you feel less weird or out of control by explaining that even in non-consensual situations stuff happens with bodies in general.

I don't know what else to offer cause its gotten way off line here.

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RE: Traitorous Vagina! - 3/2/2006 10:09:20 PM

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So get to the important thing. (*grin*) When and where is he going to give lessons to all the rest of us lowly human men? (LOL)

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