ownedgirlie
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ORIGINAL: LuckyAlbatross quote:
ORIGINAL: ownedgirlie i won't shoot you. i was thinking along the same lines. If my Master disappeared tomorrow, he still would have given me the biggest gift in life, and that is to have known him. Cherish what you have been given. Missing it only emphasizes what a gift you received. Having something disappear is something very different than this particular situation. There is a sense that, in time, a loss becomes bearable and you are able to forget the pain and enjoy the sweetness. But that's not the same as every day being shown and reminded of what you are not getting, and perhaps having to watch others having what you are specifically being denied of. I can tell you that when I was owned by my aunt and her husband it became very hard to sleep in a separate bed every single night. I still loved them, I still served and was happy to be owned by them. But not being allowed to be in bed with them didn't emphasize the wonderfulness of the rest of it- it was just something difficult to deal with and accept. Indeed. As when a former Dom took over a friend of mine and i was left to the side to watch/hear them. It got to the point where i couldn't do it anymore. i wasn't trained to deal with it, and was released. And yet...in the long run...i had to take something good away from it, or what would have been the point?
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