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breathoffreshair -> Able to exhale (10/18/2009 8:11:56 AM)
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I won't lie, I have been on here before. I have been a member on/off since early 2006. I have been through many stages, incarnations, and even grew a bit weary of even messing with it all.
When I was sitting down thinking of a name, I was thinking of taking my original name back. I then had to realize that since that was created, I have grown, changed, experienced, and discovered many new things about myself. If I had done that, I think I would have felt like I was taking a step back in ways.
I wish sometimes I had not gone through these changes in quite such a public way, but I am also glad that I can look back and see how I have changed and grown.
I hope with time you will all see those changes also, at least those that have known me a long time.
My dominant and I are ending our relationship. He and I talked and decided we were on different pages in our lives. I loved being a slave, but.....I wanted to also have the emotional support, to be thought of as a person, and to have a relationship at the core of the dynamic. I think that we are both able to handle things as we have shows I have changed in many ways. Before, an event like this would throw me into a tail spin, now..it makes me dig in and realize how strong I am.
I am not rushing into anything with anyone. I have learned so much about myself and I don't think that process will end anytime soon. That doesn't mean I don't want to talk to people and make some new friendships along the way. If I enter into a D/s or M/s relationship again, it will be down the road with both of us being on the same page in everything.
A part of me is sad, as with any ending, but I have no doubt it's all for the best.
I hope you will get to know me again, or for the first time. We all go through things in life, but it's how we handle them I think that makes us what we are. I am excited to see what the future has in store like I have never been before in my life. I have a rational mind, a strong support system of friends, and a lot of faith.
Thank you,
Anne
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