ShadowyEmbrace
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It was over, he knew that it was, no matter how hard he tried to convicne her she couldn't love him anymore. He knew it was his own fault, he'd should and yell in the days leading up to their separation that she had pushed him away, that she had fallen out of love with him long ago and she only stayed with him so she could be the one to say she didn't end it. Now that she was gone however, her last words sounding so harsh to him, he realized it was really he who had done the pushing. He could be so cruel when he wanted to be, so harsh and judgmental, so demanding, it was his defense, a life of confusion and hart ache had made him that way and even though he tried in earnest to work passed his demons in the end it was to no avail, the damage had been done long before their final words.
He cried that night without let up, without sleep, he cried till his eyes grew red and raw, he cried well into the morning, until his voice gave out, he cried long into the day until there was absolutely nothing left, and as he began to recover, and some of his strength returned he felt the tears well up again. He spit curses to God, he'd wish God would take him in his sleep, and when he awoke the next morning he'd damn that God for not answering his prayer. He'd turn to alcohol, in time he'd drink again it was inevitable now, only a matter of time until that old monster would come again to consume his life and any will that was left in him, only this time he knew it would finish the job it started long ago in his childhool. He didn't blame her, like every woman that came before her he knew he would bring her suffering and he'd damage her spirit before it would end. He only wished he could understand a way to have stopped it before it began.
He went back into his memories, of how he felt when they first met, about the joy she had told him he had given her when she was at her lowest, how he had made her feel as if she had been brought back from the dead. When she'd tell him those things it would make him feel strong, like the man he had always wished to feel like but could never find that feeling within himself except when he was with her the woman he loved. He would think back to the first time he laid eyes on her, how gorgeous she was to him, it seemed as though God himself had taken all that was in his hart, his mind, his dreams and manifested it into realitiy and it was embodied within her. He'd remember how fortunate he felt, despite his many flaws that he had managed to call down this angel from heaven into his presence. He'd remember their first kiss and how he had let himself go whole heartedly inot the moment how he'd let his spirit be taken up in its rapture. And he'd remember the first time he made her laugh and how he could feel the warmth radiate from her soul and how its heat would ignite his own spirit into ecstasy.
But now it was over, and he knew it was his fault, his last chance at happiness had passed. He'd never forgive himself, he'd never find away to. He had wanted to make her happy, he had wanted to make her feel loved, to haven given her the life she had been robbed of since her childhood, to wrap her in his arms, in his love and let it produce the safety and security that she had missed and longed for her entire life. But now he couldn't have that chance ever again... And for that he cursed himself, "Damn you! You self-righteous coward! You let her go... You wronged her for the last time, you don't deserve this, you don't deserve her forgiveness! You don't deserve her." And he was right.
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Begining
Eagerly, he entered the lavish upscale hotel lobby, he scanned the area looking for her, it was massive crowded arena. For a moment his hart sank in his chest, he though perhaps she hadn't come, that maybe her nerves had gotten the better of her and she decided against meeting him. But then just off to his right he heard a meek voice sya "Hey good looking" He turned and saw her standing there before him. His breath was taken away, she was beutiful, the pictures she had sent him in the months leading up to this moment certainly hadden done her ture apperance justice.
Thats it for now I work my stories from the end to the begining don't worry there is much spanking/BDSM to come! LoL opinions please.
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