lovingpet -> RE: I Admit It I........ (12/3/2009 1:34:25 PM)
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I admit I travelled over two hours ONE WAY to a nearly 4 hour doctor's appointment only to learn that, in addition to my mild vision problems, I have dry eyes. I admit I was supposedly sent to see if 1. My vision was part of my headache issues and 2. If being fat was putting pressure on my optic nerve. I admit I keep telling doctors, honestly I might add, that I became fat due to being in pain and tired all the time, not the other way around. I admit I stick to my belief that one has to undo medical conditions more or less in the same order they originally occurred. I admit that I need to not be in pain and tired all the time so that I am able to do the hard work of dropping all this weight. I admit my own itching to do fun things would make it fly off IF I felt good enough to do them and REALLY enjoy them. I admit as long as it is torture, I am not able or motivated to move one fat assed muscle. I admit I have been crippled up or utterly exhausted doing one very simple task on some days. I admit I mean simple as in getting dressed or making a sandwich. I admit I can't get doctors to comprehend and want to learn voodoo just so I can stick them in my body for a day or two. I admit I would probably make it longer out of sheer vindictiveness. I admit I really wish someone in a position to help me actually understood and would, I don't know, HELP me. I admit I am beyond frustrated with doctors, their attitudes toward me and my conditions, and the effective treatments. I admit I am sick of being told to make a symptom (being fat) go away when they won't fix the disease (fibro, et al). I admit I know of several therapies that would help me. I admit I can't find a doctor with the guts to go through with any of them. I admit my only solace is now to come to terms with choosing between breaking the law or living my life. I admit those choices suck. I admit I always have a down and discouraging day after having been to a doctor. I admit I need hugs and LOTS of holiday cheer!
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