Aneirin -> RE: Why the 'inserthere'. (11/21/2009 6:48:40 PM)
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If I understand your question, and you know me hovering between no faith, buddhist, Earth centred and whatever, but usually somewhere around the former three which always comes back to Earth centred as the most felt. I have and do sometimes refer to my belief as pagan, but feel pagan does not describe the belief I feel, for the simple reasons all those I have come across who brandish the title as if it were a banner, tend to be full of shit, charlatans and ego trippers mostly. Where does my belief come from, well, it's not books that is for sure, I have read a few, but what they spout I do not wholeley agree with, so books written by others I do not follow, and my collection of such books have now found homes with other seekers.Where my belief comes from, I think is the heart, the feeling I get when I am in certain places, the countryside, be it wood, moor or sea, I feel a something there that has meaning for me, but never in cities or other built up areas, what is there, is squashed thin, or I am not sensitive enough to see it as by that, it is not for me. My belief comes and goes, it is not plain to see all the time, but it comes with a tempest force when I become exposed to what perhaps my soul seeks in my life, the latest instance, was my last evening visit to an agricultural commune in Cornwall, only fifteen miles from where I live. It is always the same, today I feel the energy still, I without thought gravitate towards thoughts of my faith, the further in weeks I am away, the less it gets, but each time there is a modification in thought. Perhaps I am getting closer to what I seek, or at least learning enough to scythe through the layers of bullshit attached to the broad term pagan and there seek my source. I know at least what I believe is now down to earth, the belief that this planet at least is my belief, it is part of me as I am of it, we are made of the same, and what it is besides somewhere to live, is my source and by that I am happiest the closer I am to it. What comes after, I have yet to speculate, but the writings of others, though sometimes they may inspire, are writings about their way, not mine, I will find my own way, my way.
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