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Fever34 -> Hey. (12/11/2009 12:00:03 AM)
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This 30-something Southern belle just wanted to introduce herself ...
I'm approaching mid-30s and married to a wonderful, mostly-vanilla-yet-super man who cooks and cleans and every so often sweeps me off my feet all over again. We've been together since 2000. The good times are very good. But the good times had gotten pretty lean for a while there. The last 18 months to a year have been pretty rocky. Spent about the past 11 months working on that. Doing my part to mend a marriage that had been crumbling -- in large part due to laziness on both our parts and in some part due to the machinations of a Dom with an agenda.
I chose the name Fever because that's how I've felt most of my life, like I was in a fever and there was no cure. I still have days like that. But I've come to terms with how I'm wired and I don't feel so frightened or frantic about it anymore. It's just me. I cope.
I let go of a lot of self-loathing and guilt over the past year and now I'm moving forward, taking stock of what I want in life and love, and acknowledging what I'm willing to do or sacrifice to get or keep that. So here I am. Hopefully among some people who might relate to my general situation and circumstance.
... and that's a lot more than I really set out to say. *laughs* ... Hope I didn't bore you to tears with my melodrama. Thanks for listening.
Peace.
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