Zechriel -> RE: Service - enjoyment versus submission (12/15/2009 6:44:37 PM)
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Good evening! I guess I do both and in a way like both, even though some things I do-I hate. I love rubbing Daddy's feet, cleaning, making him meals-I get that I like doing that service. That's easy. What's hard? Doing things I hate for him. Recently...I had hurt my shoulder a year ago and have been letting it go. He got me into the doctor's, rehab, specialist, all of them. Then they wanted an arthrogam (MRI with needles and dye-ICK) I said no way, put me out, not with my panic attacks, NO!! Well yeah I ended up being loaded with Nyquil and Atavan..schlepped around in a wheelchair and sleeping and crying thru the procedure. HATED IT, but afterwards realized it needed to be done and a teeny tiny sense of pride/happiness/peace knowing that I had did it for him, cause he told me to, cause he wanted it done. I am still not dancing around with a huge grin on my face but hearing him say he was proud of me and feeling his arms around me afterwards-makes it kinda okay. P.S. Not that I would ever do it again on my own-just for Daddy. lol Love, Zechriel [sm=couple.gif]
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