KSubM
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Joined: 12/7/2008 Status: offline
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My advice to you would be - be careful what you wish for because the sense of loss can be incredible. Personally I can compare that sudden realization and loss to only two previous events in my life namely when I lost from friends (in the army) and when my dad passed away. Then again - I must admit that I was not prepared and did not expect this so in a way I suppose I was "open" to all this. In fact - me writing here was an act of desperation as well. I suppose I was hoping for some fairy godmother with a magic wand that would make it all go away. In the end there is only the reality to deal with. Besides - in time of need I have always found the bdsm community to be the most understanding and supportive of all so I knew I would get something worth taking onboard from here. For this I thank everyone who made the effort to respond. Now I am trying to keep writing in the hope that others may learn something - I am sure that somewhere in the world someone may learn something from this experience. Besides, I always write because it helps me clear my mind. I have written more than 300 pages the past 2 months or so. In a way I suppose this is my diary of my life. If I can believe vincent our sceptic I may even publish a book one day (although I really fail to understand why anyone would read about these situations - except maybe if they are as desperate as I was at the time.) Good luck with your search for that special Mistress - hope you find Her soon..
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