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service oriented slaves - 3/17/2006 7:01:19 PM

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i was talking with an old friend of mine today about somethings that were on my mind...as the conversation continued we started discussing personal views on things. So often a service oriented slave is not understood...or are misunderstood.

i reflected back to a time when i first met Master. i wrote a story (of some length) about what i believed was my first meeting with my own reflection which basically helped set up Oour unique dynamic.

A few weeks ago i had a similar discussion of sorts with a different friend of mine about my favorite fuck hole. Both conversations seem to lead into each other.

my favorite fuck hole (i know all you perverts are wondering) happens to be my mouth. He wondered why. my reply confused Him. my mouth is my favorite used fuckhole not because i do not like sex or orgasms but because it is the most selfless hole i have.i can give pleasure without receiving any and sometimes i am permitted a gift to be allowed to swallow my Masters cum. It only gives pleasure and that is all i desire.

In my story of my own reflection i saw myself being receipt of a wonderful gift denile! To offer pleasure and be given crumbs. To serve without limit nor expectation other than my basic needs met. To always want and hunger but to be at the mercy of Him...the gift of sacrafice i give chastity orgasm denile not because i do not enjoy orgasms but because i enjoy them as much as i do i want to give it up for Him.

To want more even to whine about it sometimes and be told no because it is His will. The harshest punishment for me is indifference. To be allowed whatever i want to indulge all my selfish desires without limit. To not be allowed to offer any pleasure.

i feel that is a service oriented slave. be it used as a domestic, a denied fuck hole, a piece of furniture, a whipping post whatever doesnt matter as long as in the end giving is selfless and taking is minimal.

i think sometimes even He forgets that drive i have. i am asked don't you want more for yourself? of course i do!! Don't you feel you deserve more? again of course i do! but, what is in it for You if i take? my desire is there without a doubt but it offers nothing but self gratification. That is NOT what i want out of life. i desire to learn altruism, giving, generosity etc.

my birthday is tommorow, and for my birthday i invited a bunch of friends to vegas for a holiday i want to see them enjoy themselves. when they asked me what i wanted i said i have it with watching all of you having fun. nothing is more precious of a gift.

on the selfish side of me, i would like one thing for my birthday for Master to simply wish me well and to have a happy day. i would like to hear His voice and maybe even get a hug or a pat on the head. That is who i am and what i desire. Sure being a fucktoy is a lot of fun and every couple months i ask to play like that and have my sessions of squirting bowlfuls but that gratification is not as fulfilling to me as staying true to my convictions and staying hungry. it is the gift of me that i offer Him and while difficult the most rewarding. The trick of the whole thing was learning how to accept Master's generosity His desire for me to take care of myself for me. To learn that it is important to Him i do so it took months for me to accept it To accept that He wants for me to have things for me. i am a lucky girl. i am able to give to Someone who will always make sure my needs are met and that i do not lose sight of that in my pursuit of selflessness.

what confounds me are those that think being slave means that you do not even have desires...i wonder am i missing something on that? can someone explain to me ?i once read a line in a book (the vampire lestat by anne rice) "take for i do not lose what i give" if you have no desire what do you have to give? isnt being slave about surrender? if so then how can you surrender something you do not posess?

thank you for your insights
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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/17/2006 7:18:53 PM

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As much as I want to comment on this... i'm in no mood to have flame torches on my ass tonight.. so on that note.. i'll say.. whatever makes YOU... and your Master happy...

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/17/2006 8:22:28 PM

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I think the largest misconception about being service oriented is that it is selfless.

It is really no more or less selfless than any other orientation a slave can have- and I have known many a sub and slave who were quite selfish in their need to serve.

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/17/2006 11:33:35 PM

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i think sometimes even He forgets that drive i have. i am asked don't you want more for yourself? of course i do!! Don't you feel you deserve more? again of course i do! but, what is in it for You if i take? my desire is there without a doubt but it offers nothing but self gratification. That is NOT what i want out of life. i desire to learn altruism, giving, generosity etc.

Why do you think that a dominant would not desire to give as well as take? If they wanted you to want more for yourself or desire more, then aren't you serving by doing so?

Service is a wonderful thing for those who receive pleasure from it, as I do. And I also know that sometimes I have to remind myself that even though I may think if I did "X", that I would be an obedient slave and which would give me great pleasure, "X" may not be what Master wants. He may want "Y" instead, which may not be the wonderful service I wanted to perform.

As a matter of fact -- sometimes Master will do something like take care of me if I'm not feeling well. This may not seem like I'm doing a service -- but by obeying and doing as he wishes, I actually am serving him.

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/18/2006 12:18:56 AM

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very well stated harmony

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/18/2006 12:32:35 AM

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Truly enjoyed your post, scratchingpost. i very much related to many parts of it. It is true, i do have very deep desires and wishes, yet to him i surrender them. i express them no doubt, but he decides what he wishes to feed.

Just last night he was telling me, if i were to come visit him and he simply kept me at his feet and patted my head occasionally, but did not use me for his pleasure, i would not be fulfilled. i said that i am always happy to simply be in his presence. He acknowledged this to be true, but said i would feel i had missed out on something if unable to serve.

The selfless part is doing that which you would not otherwise want to do, because it pleases him. Or NOT doing what you would crave to do, without complaint, because he does not feel like it. Or the days i do not hear from him much, if at all, because he is too busy...so i go about my business and do not sniffle about it; rather i wait patiently for his return.

Thank you for sharing yet another post that moved me.

And happy birthday :)

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/18/2006 10:43:34 AM

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It was a great well thought out post. Very articulate I read your Profile and it says you are a "Pro Domme" and I feel that You probably are a pretty good one being able to get in touch of your submissive side so well as a switch.

It is great being able to fulfill the desire to learn to serve and fulfill Others pleasures and then also learn to accept the service and submission of another as they Worship You.

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/18/2006 11:23:21 AM

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ORIGINAL: artglfr

It was a great well thought out post. Very articulate I read your Profile and it says you are a "Pro Domme" and I feel that You probably are a pretty good one being able to get in touch of your submissive side so well as a switch.

It is great being able to fulfill the desire to learn to serve and fulfill Others pleasures and then also learn to accept the service and submission of another as they Worship You.

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It was a great well thought out post. Very articulate I read your Profile and it says you are a "Pro Domme" and I feel that You probably are a pretty good one being able to get in touch of your submissive side so well as a switch.

It is great being able to fulfill the desire to learn to serve and fulfill Others pleasures and then also learn to accept the service and submission of another as they Worship You.

smiles warmly i am not a switch at all i am a slave my Master desires me to top so i do. i am an alpha slave

if you have ever read the market place series i was trained in the role of chris parker the major domo a slave trainer but still a slave smiles sometimes it is hard to tell the difference because i always seem top but the soul is that of a slave. it does help as each pro client i have i intend to build a relationship with to ensure they get the best scene possible. i do not watch the clock and i speak at length with each one to get as deep into their mind as possible for what is "just a pro scene" but i enjoy what i do and who i am its a unique role.

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RE: service oriented slaves - 3/18/2006 11:28:53 AM

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thank you owned girlie and i know exactly how you feel i am just happy to give to Master and do my best. through hard times and good i know where i belong and that is all that i need to make me happy

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