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Putting Ego to Rest - 12/22/2009 4:10:08 AM

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Since I came to the conclusion; the most important thing someone’s emotions can tell anyone, is an indication of vulnerability in the one expressing them, I decided to be much more diligent in investigating mine; especially the unpleasant ones.

Last night was very productive in that goal.

It hurt being referred to as a “silly twat”. Twat… twat… twat…

The last time I remember being referred to as such, I was 15, and my friend’s boyfriend was yelling at me because the drunk guy, we were supposed to get a ride home with disappeared, after I refused to fuck him. When he was done yelling, I said, “you’re right, I am an ungrateful little twat!” Turned out, he was just sleeping it off for awhile, somewhere.

I know, not much of a slut. Slut… slut… slut…

Sir asks me if I am a ‘slut’ sometimes, I say “yes, Sir!” Perhaps it is a lie.

The only other man I’ve ‘belonged to’, used to call me a “good little cunt”. Cunt… cunt… cunt…

He said it was not the same as being a “bad, mean cunt”; like his ex-wife.

My friend from work, a fiery, redheaded Taurus, and I, occasionally refer to each other as ‘bitch’. Bitch… bitch… bitch…

She is the only other female on ‘the night crew’, and not one other member of ‘the team’ enjoys approaching us with something they know will upset our ‘balance’. I suspect the term fits.

To be honest, I don’t know what to think, being referred to as a “silly twat”. I believe if the truth hurts, then I should change it, but only if I find that truth to be unbeneficial to my goal/purpose.

I guess, I can assess the actions of those who know me best, and conclude, if true; I make “silly twat” look okay, while continuing to strive for improvement.

Just thought it would be therapeutic.

Kim

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RE: Putting Ego to Rest - 12/22/2009 5:20:57 AM

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Doesn't it depend on who is referring to you in that way? And why? If you're a CPA and giving him professional advice, then to have your entire education and work history negated simply because you're female should be considered offensive.

If you do humiliation play, then that's one thing. But to have it said without affection and meaning that your thoughts and opinions are worthless simply because your anatomy is female should not be considered a good lesson in reducing your ego but a lesson in rethinking who you associate with.

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RE: Putting Ego to Rest - 12/22/2009 5:26:19 AM

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You are not silly.

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RE: Putting Ego to Rest - 12/22/2009 6:03:54 AM

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Doesn't it depend on who is referring to you in that way? And why? If you're a CPA and giving him professional advice, then to have your entire education and work history negated simply because you're female should be considered offensive.

I think, in the end, only the truth of the matter really counts. If I have degrees and experience under my belt, it would be easier to prove the accusation false, but not having those things does not automatically deem me unintelligent.

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But to have it said without affection and meaning that your thoughts and opinions are worthless simply because your anatomy is female should not be considered a good lesson in reducing your ego but a lesson in rethinking who you associate with.

That’s my point, though; it does have meaning, to me. My intent is to investigate why, so I can get rid of it.

As for the one who said it, the desire to say it says something about them. I can accept that.

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Thank you, Rule.

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RE: Putting Ego to Rest - 12/22/2009 7:49:15 AM

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Or you can do what I have learned to do and defuse it.

Silly...........absolutely I am, every single chance I get, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Twat........most definitely at times. No one is perfect, least of all me. And if I was feeling especially twatty....

maybe something like this... If my twattiness peaked out and inadvertently bruised your sensitive feelings/ego, please advise me as to when and where so that I can be certain I enjoy it more next time.

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RE: Putting Ego to Rest - 12/22/2009 8:40:52 AM

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Or you can do what I have learned to do and defuse it.

Silly...........absolutely I am, every single chance I get, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Twat........most definitely at times. No one is perfect, least of all me.

Yes, and I find that does help alleviate each individual incident. However, I don’t believe the real problem stems from a couple of word, one of witch, I wasn’t even sure how to define, until you offered your example. (Thank you)

I want to get to the roots; remove it, like a weed.

To me it implied I should not even be trying to think, never mind believing anything I think is valid; I guess, to some extent, I believe it is truth.

I don’t think it’s an unreasonable thought; I’ve based my beliefs on my experiences, and those are such, I’m pretty sure any sane person would question their sanity, after.

Apparently, I still don’t believe. *sighs*

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And if I was feeling especially twatty.... maybe something like this... If my twattiness peaked out and inadvertently bruised your sensitive feelings/ego, please advise me as to when and where so that I can be certain I enjoy it more next time.

Lol… I’ll remember to keep you aware; I could use the practice.

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