Aynne88
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ORIGINAL: littlewonder Not yet but I know it's in the near future. I'm not looking forward to it since I do enjoy sleeping next to him. littlewonder, may I ask why you know it is in the near future? Is it a punishment, or a change in a dynamic, or something temporary? If you don't want to answer, totally understand, it just struck me as curious. We went to a golf tournament a few months ago and it was a 5 night event and on the 3rd night I drank too much and I was a bitch and he didn't let me sleep with him, but he woke up in the middle of the night and brought me into his bed, and held me while I cried. It was horrible to feel so isolated I guess is the word. I don't ever want to do anything to not be in his bed again. I know it's coming in the near future because he told me it is. It is to remind me of his slave's place. Yes I know that he cares for me very much but he also likes to remind me every so often that I am still his slave and if he wants me to sleep on the floor then that is his choice and it's not about me..it's about him. Thanks for answering littlewonder. I know that feeling. Usually my reminders are of the same sort, you are right it is about him, but it hurts, but in an odd way when He does something like that to me I try to see the love in as well, like I dwell on the fact that it is a deeper kind of love I guess and for him to reinforce what for me is the best relationship I have ever had, then I try and take it as a reminder of his wanting to strengthen the bond. The last time I kept him waiting for an hour, it was a legitimate reason, but nonetheless, he was rightfully upset, so I was not allowed for the rest of the week to bring him lunch at work and he knows that for me that is important and meaningful to me, he has diabetes and caring for that is one of the most important ways to show my love but he said I was not responsible enough to be on time so I was not responsible enough to prepare his food. It stung, but it worked. You will be fine, I have read your posts for a long time, you are a strong woman. It may actually turn out to be a bonding thing like for some of the other women here have said, I hope for you it is.
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