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AAkasha -> Ladies - what do you fantasize about? (2/1/2010 11:29:19 AM)
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Triggered by a thought from another thread. What do you fantasize about?
I tend to fixate on one idea/theme for several days until I either tire myself of it, or *act it out* with a partner (if that makes sense). My fantasies are like MTV videos a lot - kind of slick, sensual, surreal. The focus is always on the man: helpless, bondage, the look in his eyes. Often a lot of atmosphere, like sounds, wind, water, wet hair. It's rarely got a *plot* (but when it does, I sometimes spin it until I can write a story about it), but I understand the motivation of the guy in it.
It used to be always a person, a specific person. When I was a teenager, it was a pop star or movie star. Sometimes it's a professional hockey player. It might be someone from real life that I know and am pursuing. Other times it's a random "guy" I invented, who kind of looks like..hmm. I guess my own version of an Ashton Kutcher or Zac Effron or younger Leonardo diCaprio - that "look" is kind of my eternal "boytoy" look that I like in fantasy.
Sometimes I will get fixated on *one little thing* a guy did that I dominated, and I will replay it over and over again in my head because it turns me on. It could have been a look in his eyes, the way he breathed, something very subtle.
How often do you fantasize? When I was growing up, it was daily, all the time. At night and in the morning, to be sure. Now, to be honest, it's less; some nice bondage or S&M imagery will float through my head, fleeting, at least once a day, but I don't devote *time* like I used to. If my head is full of work stuff, that's usually bouncing around in my mind as I fall asleep or when I wake up. If I make an effort to "turn off that tape" and instead do something self indulgent with my brain, I will either practice positive thinking and/or meditate -- or, get really self indulgent in fantasy. It just depends on how long it's been since I got my "fix."
Akasha
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