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Missykink -> Being careful what you wish for !! (3/17/2010 5:18:41 AM)
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After having quite a bad shock last week I was feeling really crap. I found myself unable to even bear hugging my partner or um which I found very distressing and felt guilty about. It took me a week to be able to literally force myself to tell my friend I felt that way and with her help tell my partner.
In four years I have never felt unable to tell my boy anything. Then whilst walking around the supermarket I blurt out how amazing it would be to just get on a plane this weekend and go to paris on my own and just not have to worry about work or people or responsibilities. This isn't something I have often thought about, I have never travelled alone and it's something completely out of my comfort zone. It just came out.
Then to add to my humiliation I start crying [:@] He just said to me consider it done and hugged me. We then carried on shopping me completely freaking out in my head and him just smiling. When we got home we talked about it for hours and came to the conclusion that A) I need a break B) I need some time alone C) How amazing it would be to go and spend some time with myself and see how well I am getting on lol
We were one click away from booking it all and I realised I just couldn't go that far yet !! So instead I let my boy suprise me by booking me away for a night somewhere in this country of his choice. I am now going to Bath (England) I am goin by train, have tickets for 2 museums, theater ticket for that evening to see a play, a beautiful hotel and an organisd full day tour the next day of stonehenge and surrounding areas. I am going to a fashion museum and to the Roman baths all by myself !
I am so excited about it all but also shitting it a bit. I think it will be really good for me. I haven't ever done anything like this before its way way out of my comfort zone ! I just hope I get on with myself lol
I am hoping to come back feeling confident and empowered [:)] Wish me luck !!
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