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Mog -> Hiya from 28 male submissive in NC (4/1/2006 6:38:31 AM)
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I've actually been on this site several times, under different handles, some of which I just didn't like the name I chose, so I started over, lol. But I did also run away from these submissive feelings I've had all my life.
Well, I recently got really close to someone, a friend who was really special to me and practically embodied what makes me want to submit to a woman. It drove me nuts for a while and I tried to handle it by seeking a romantic relationship with her, but it wasn't meant to be. Distance and upbringing were somewhat of a factor. Still I felt the need to explain my actions, so I later told her of my submissive feelings toward a woman like her.
I had never been more frightened in my life and I was litterally shaking before her as I expressed my feelings. I wasn't looking to change her mind about the romantic interest, I just wanted to show my real self to a friend for the very first time. She gave me a very understanding smile and appreciated me confessing this to her. I think she even felt a little empowered by it.
So now I'm back here, seeking again and seeking for real. Not running away like I have before. And I have to say, I've felt really focused lately. Desires I've had for material things, anger and frustration I had toward others - all of it melted away after my confession. It feels really good to have spoken it to someone.
So now I'm out here seeking guidance as a submissive as well as a potential match in a Female Dominant.
Anyway, that's it ^^
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